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**** The Darkness OfflineNothing Began Everything |
Last Activity: October 19th 2018 05:18 AM
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Hey Im Casper.
And I seen your bands.
I love them!!!!
And I also like your profile
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GOSH! I am in stockroach now finally!
I feel so dumb lol for taking so long to figure this out
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Sorry for taking so long, I am still trying to find you
Lol that's what happens when you don't play games at all -
Tell me when you are on gaia, I just finished my paper and the next one will be 5 days from now. That's means a break in between to play games!
Nah, well honestly break doesnt mean play games for me, but I do love to try that out! -
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About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Raphael
- Gender
- Nonbinary (They/Them)
- Location
- California
- About
- About me
- I feel happier and emptier than I ever had
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- traumatized
- Sexuality
- Queer Ace
- Ethnicity
- Latinx
- Education
- University - Undergraduate
- Occupation
- Myself
- Politics
- Leftist
- Religion
- Unsure
- Zodiac sign
- Cancer
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Writing
- Music
- 10 Years, Chevelle, RED, Muse, Coldplay, Rise Against
- Movies
- A Beautiful Mind, Gone Girl, The Social Network, Milk
- Television
- Empire, Steven Universe
- Books
- GONE, HUNGER, LIES, PLAGUE, FEAR, LIGHT, Gone Girl
- Sports
- Reading
- Heroes
- Dean Spade
- Favorite quotes
- "This is the last time I'll abandon you, and this is the last time I'll forget you."
"Please don't break my ideals, and say what's fake, was always real."
"I live my life like I bleed, too much"
"Is there a God tonight, up in the sky, or is it empty just like me?"
"Force me to lose control, watch as I lose my soul, push me until I fall"
"Don't say I'm better off dead. 'Cause heaven's full and hell won't have me. Won't you make some room in your bed? Oh well you could, lock me up in your heart and throw away the key. Won't you take me out of my head?"
"For a second, not a single moment of my past belonged."
"Waking, the nightmare bleeds over. I'll fight you, your darkness, feeding."
"So use my affection as your favourite weapon"
"I wanna live in a wooden house, making more friends would be easy, I wanna live where the sun comes out"
"Wake, unafraid, a new day a new time is here. Worlds fade away, I'll laugh while they all disappear."
"I pray peace my find me" - Other interests
- You.
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Signature
- THE POINT OF SINGULARITY IS NOTHING AS NOTHING BEGAN EVERYTHING
PULSING IN THE EXPAND CONSUME WITHOUT BARRIER OR BORDER
IT IS DARK BECAUSE IT IS THE DARKNESS IT IS OVER BECAUSE IT IS THE END
THERE IS NO SENTRY BECAUSE NONE DARE APPROACH
IT HAS NEVER BEEN AND IT IS ALL THAT EVER WAS
AT THE CENTER YOU DO NOT FIND THE ANSWER
YOU DO NOT FIND YOURSELF THERE IS NO CENTER AND THERE IS NO YOU THERE IS ONLY MADNESS
WE ARE ALL HERE NOW.
WE ARE ALL HERE.
WE ARE.
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This whole friend thing got me fucked up.
I feel like I gotta watch everything I post on social media just so it won't tick off people. I have to be as careful as some kid who just added their parent to social media. That means no talking about people, no ironic edgy jokes, none of that. Just me and my fucking boring outside life.
Meanwhile, my therapist seems to be siding with the friend issue and denies I'm desperate for friends. Which is a total lie, I am fucking desperate for friends...
I feel like I gotta watch everything I post on social media just so it won't tick off people. I have to be as careful as some kid who just added their parent to social media. That means no talking about people, no ironic edgy jokes, none of that. Just me and my fucking boring outside life.
Meanwhile, my therapist seems to be siding with the friend issue and denies I'm desperate for friends. Which is a total lie, I am fucking desperate for friends...
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I have some to unpack. It's about friends and the feeling of losing my mind again.
I should listen to my therapist and seriously go to sleep right now but I need to write about the people I know in a space where I know they won't see.
So, let's just start with friends. I invited them to come with me to buy groceries and Erin refused while Thor ignored. Later, I see on snapchat that they're both at Kailoni's birthday party when Erin said they'll be heading home at that time so they...
I should listen to my therapist and seriously go to sleep right now but I need to write about the people I know in a space where I know they won't see.
So, let's just start with friends. I invited them to come with me to buy groceries and Erin refused while Thor ignored. Later, I see on snapchat that they're both at Kailoni's birthday party when Erin said they'll be heading home at that time so they...
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I just
It's been a lot
I got back with Evan so that's a plus
I've passed my college classes, barely, so that's a plus.
I got pneumonia and for that reason I needed to quit my summer job
I can't escape my mom so she degrades me everyday
My therapist says mother's verbal abuse is just her way of saying I love you.
Of course how could I be so blind of course yelling at your child that she's useless and will never be a functioning member of society is...
It's been a lot
I got back with Evan so that's a plus
I've passed my college classes, barely, so that's a plus.
I got pneumonia and for that reason I needed to quit my summer job
I can't escape my mom so she degrades me everyday
My therapist says mother's verbal abuse is just her way of saying I love you.
Of course how could I be so blind of course yelling at your child that she's useless and will never be a functioning member of society is...
Posted in Uncategorized
It's like I can't have happiness anymore.
It's been like 6 months since I broke up with Evan and I'm still crying at night and wishing I was dead.
Lana Del Rey can clearly depict my sadness.
I just have hit my low again. Hopefully tomorrow I can send a letter I wrote to him saying how much I hate him and how much he's hurt me because I cannot let him go on happy as he is without feeling guilty over what he's done to me. He can't go on and move on without feeling a little bit...
It's been like 6 months since I broke up with Evan and I'm still crying at night and wishing I was dead.
Lana Del Rey can clearly depict my sadness.
I just have hit my low again. Hopefully tomorrow I can send a letter I wrote to him saying how much I hate him and how much he's hurt me because I cannot let him go on happy as he is without feeling guilty over what he's done to me. He can't go on and move on without feeling a little bit...
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I SAY THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE AND DANDY AND THEN IT BECOMES NOT FINE AND DANDY
I lost him. I posted about him a few minutes ago
I am just so sad
so terribly sad
i was suppose to marry him but now
nothing.
I lost him. I posted about him a few minutes ago
I am just so sad
so terribly sad
i was suppose to marry him but now
nothing.
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