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I think ive finally reached an end point
there is no further to go
no more life lessons to learn
no cutain call
no encore
no final wishes
no last breaths
just a black empty hole something im trying desparately to fill, anything, its like im clucthing at human contact
makes me know im alive
doesnt stop it hurting, doesnt make breathing easier
Doesnt make liveing with myeself easy
but hey
might not have to do it for long...

I am utterly going to fail my exams
thats my career out the window
my bf is breaking up with me
i feel so lost
should i feel this guilty over it?
should i cry more?
Hes institutionalised me by totally monopolysing me
il be empty of he goes
he left me with nothing ;(

Today is sociopath day
i wanted to throw a guy across a room by his throat earlier for making smart arse comments
and i have friends that are trying to be supportive but just crippling me.I feel smothered by everyone, and just cant breathe,
i just wanna be swallowed up by this black hole inside.

I dont really know what im supposed to do?
Sit here and talk about why i like everyone else has "problems"
I think jamie made me come on here for a reason somehow. Not quite sure what?
I dont want to say things and seem cliche and "emo"
But yet..this is all new to me
I dont dot he being helped
im the helper
so come to me

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