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Last Activity: December 20th 2010 10:28 AM
About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Sebz
- Gender
- Guy
- Location
- In front of my dad's ancient laptop ^_^
- About
- About me
- Yeah.
ITS ME!!!!
Don't judge :P
I'm fourteen and loving it :D
I am S-I-N-G-L-E ladies ;D
I have lots of phobias and anxiety and health problems...
But I'm trying to get over the anxieties and phobias ^_^
I have crazy mood swings, from happy to sad.
I have been abused and tortured to my near death on multiple occasions, and have some other very bad sights and sounds...
I'm a very jumpy person and get scared easily... And ummm embarrasing to say but even the sudden movements of that chat room make me jump XD
Having all this crap happen to me once made me a bitter, sad person if I wasn't taking antidepressants or three hours since I last cut, but I've recently (since May 2nd :P) taken a different turn on life, and am trying to turn from bitter when I don't cut or take pills to how I act when I do take pills and cut, except I don't actually take the pills or grab a razor.
- Details
- Here for
- Need help for a problem
- Relationship status
- Single
- Sexuality
- Heterosexual/Straight
- Ethnicity
- Guatamalean and Aztec-Mexican though i look like i'm from the pacific or middle-east ^_^
- Education
- In IB :D I needta get started on my massive piles of HW O_O
- Occupation
- Full-time life liver ^_^
- Politics
- YOUR MOTHER!!!!
- Religion
- Agnostic but my parents are Catholic and want me to be Catholic too T_T
- Zodiac sign
- Taurus
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Drawing and writing and reading and talking and texting and playing FALLOUT 3 :O (that game is so god damn addicting T_T)
- Music
- NOT COUNTRY T_T
- Movies
- I don't watch movies :)
- Television
- I don't watch t.v often enough to figure it out
- Games
- MGS, Red Faction Guerrila, Metroid (any of them), Oblivion, Morrowind, Dead Space, Majora's Mask, Fire Emblem, Silent Hill (Two is the bestest! :D), Age of Empires, Phoenix Wright (OBJECTION! lol), Fallout 3, Left 4 Dead
- Books
- The Dark Tower series and Carrie... Stephen King's best books in my opinion...
AND Speak, which i can read over and over again without getting bored cuz its so good - Sports
- Track and Field ^_^ I suck at it though...
- Heroes
- My Umpa
- Favorite quotes
- “98 percent of us will die at some point in our lifetime.”
~ A statistician using New Math on Death
"You're going to die in here!"
~Valen Dreth
"And now, in keeping with Channel 40's policy of always bringing you the latest in blood and guts, in living color, you're about to see another first - an attempted suicide."
~~ Chris Chubbuck, newscaster, shot herself during broadcast, d. July 15, 1974
Don't worry, it's not loaded.
~~ Terry Kath, rock musician, shot himself while playing Russian roulette, d. January 23, 1978 - Other interests
- EATING :9
and trying to avoid panic attacks anxiety and flashbacks >.>
AND eating curry!
And honey nut cheerios!
And watermelon
AND smoothies :9
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- I'm Sebz ^_^
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I hope we become friends
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Posted September 11th 2010 at 08:57 AM by shaytaan
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It's dark outside.
I'm cold...
Bruised...
I can hardly move my right arm...
Can hardly breathe...
I feel like just curling up and crying...
Is it bad I think that I was...
r....
By my father?
I don't remember it...
But...
HE does...
HE whispered in my ear...
HE usually tells me bad things...
I'm cold...
Bruised...
I can hardly move my right arm...
Can hardly breathe...
I feel like just curling up and crying...
Is it bad I think that I was...
r....
By my father?
I don't remember it...
But...
HE does...
HE whispered in my ear...
HE usually tells me bad things...
Posted July 23rd 2010 at 09:27 AM by shaytaan
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I HATE MY FATHER.
Is it bad that this is the first and only time I've uttered thosse words?
I never hated him.
Just feared him
"Respected" him.
I found out something today that is probably gonna mess me up inside...
Its sad...
Only recently, just very recently, have I stopped seeing her eyes...
Arianna has helped me so much...
Because of her I've gotten off cuting,...
Is it bad that this is the first and only time I've uttered thosse words?
I never hated him.
Just feared him
"Respected" him.
I found out something today that is probably gonna mess me up inside...
Its sad...
Only recently, just very recently, have I stopped seeing her eyes...
Arianna has helped me so much...
Because of her I've gotten off cuting,...
Posted July 21st 2010 at 08:10 AM by shaytaan
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On Monday....
My dad has a "welcome back present"....
How much more can he destroy me?
How much more can he take everything away???
My life love happiness everything...
I can't go publically swimming cuz the bruises....
My dad has a "welcome back present"....
How much more can he destroy me?
How much more can he take everything away???
My life love happiness everything...
I can't go publically swimming cuz the bruises....
Posted July 10th 2010 at 02:36 AM by shaytaan
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Why are the flashbacks so vivid???
I'm safe (for a little bit)
No father no cousins
Out of place out of mind right???!?!?!?
Thats what Shelbz said but its not true!!
The flashbacks worsened!!
WHY?!
I'm safe (for a little bit)
No father no cousins
Out of place out of mind right???!?!?!?
Thats what Shelbz said but its not true!!
The flashbacks worsened!!
WHY?!
Posted July 6th 2010 at 09:02 AM by shaytaan
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I HATE CUTTING
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
It makes me feel so sick and broken :"(
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
It makes me feel so sick and broken :"(
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Awwwh i'm so sorry to...
Posted July 26th 2010 at 09:38 PM by Jannel