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Seriously? man you r missin out! what the heck youve never seen snow before? where r you? in the dessert or something?
man dude you know what i wud do. get a blender or somethin and throw ice in their and just blend it until its snow and keep doing that until it fills your bath tub haha (: idk a bathtubs a guess but i really dont know where you cud put it and it wont like melt or anything haha. seriously? im sorry! ): man ive bene in that situation MANY TIMES LET ME TELL YOU. it hurts, especially if you dated the guy before and he brokeup with you. even if it was years ago i cant imagine me not being upset. it wud still probley bother me even if i had a boyfriend of my own then and the old dude was just friends or was a thing of the past. ya know? it just seems like you never forget those people in your lives. and for me, it takes me like 2 months at the most just to get over them. but it seems like forever! yeah i think i wud be upset and i know for a fact that when you love someone so much, and you get so close to em, you relize, hes not just a dude, hes something way more than that. honestly its alright if your in love with the guy. but i mean i can garantee your going to have future boyfriends too and hes gonna ahev future girlfriends. and i can see how hard it wud be NOT TO IGNORE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU WHEN YOUR SPENDING TIME WITH YOUR CRUSH. it is rude thats all i can say. but ive ended up being rude and ignoring even my most bestfriends just becuz of a guy. and yes, it is ssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooo hard to concentrate on other things when your with them. but i cud probley see why they r doing that. i wud talk to your friend about it, does she know you like him? becuz if she knows you like him and shes flirting with him then thats rude! i wud talk to her about it, she should only be flirting with him if you said it was okay with you, a trust friend doesnt do that (:
but on top of that he seems like a big fat jerk himself ignoring you too. if hes into your friend then i wud stay opened to other people. and you never know, he just might come around and ask for your hand.

WHAT?! SHE MESSED UP ON YOUR HAIR? WHAT KIND OF HAIRDRESSER IS SHE? OKAY WAS IT EXSPENSIVE? MABIE YOU CUD TRY TO MAKEUP MONEY FOR IT BY ALLOWANCE OR SOMETHING. BUT SERIOUSLY I WUD TALK TO YOUR MOM ABOUT IT OR SOMEONE AND SEE WHAT THEY CAN DO CUZ THATS JUST MESSED UP!

I know haha and i looked pretty good haha (;
i had my first sleepover with my bestfriend haha!
it was A LOT OF FUN. and yeah thats pretty sad that im 13 and thats the first sleepover ive ever had (well okay besides going over to my sisters when i was 8 but thats wasnt really considered a sleepover) okay i dont know but seriously that was my first sleepover. i wish i cud have my crush over thats has liked me for almost 6 months now. we went out 2 times. were friends now and i wish he couldve come over but when i told my mom shes like "absolutley not, im mad at his butt' and then my mom went in another room and i was like, "why is she mad at him?" and then when my mom finnaly came downstairs i was like mom why r you-? "I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT IM JUST MAD AT HIM THATS WHY" and im like, okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.... haha my moms funny as sh$@! haha anyway i know when you havent worn a dress in a long time or you never have you litterly feel exsposed and like your butts bare naked LOL no seriously not lying you really do. (: LOL but no i wouldnt worry about its gonna be different for everybody and for me its actullay fun wearing a dress and such since all the guys r checkin you out and cant even sing in the play haha. and everybodys complimenting you and stuff.

guess what?
(its snowing)
LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW LET IT SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
merry christmas haha

Oh hey nothin much just got back from my christmas play and i actullay got the guts to wear a dress which the last time i did was 4 years ago and man when i came in that room all the boys had this look on their face Holy s#@%! shes hot! haha! yeah it was pretty awsome and threw that whole intire thing all the dudes were looking at me at me threw the whole intire thing and some of them just stared at me and sung and not even looking at the audience which was haha, made me feel a little i dont know, like at least i knew i was pretty and attractive and a lot of dudes usually well fall for me easily with trying very little amount with them. and at least i know i least didnt feel like a fatty. so that was a good feeling to have. i went to my youth group yesterday and all the girls sad in a circle in chairs and everybody said there highs, and there lows. i said my high was that i was happy becuz i decided to really let go of my selfharm and i havent done it in 2 weeks and 2 and a half days! my low was that ive bene struggling with depression for quite a few years and now that its winter it really sucks for us becuz once we dont get a lot of sun. our depression sky rockets for the winter. i dont toatally like being depressed but if im not then i go crazy. like i feel numb and i cant stand it, i have to be depressed. i have to feel something. and i am again now. but they did this long prayer for me which was, SO NICE. christmas has bene good in a lot of ways but no snow ):

that picture is soooo f---ing awesome!!! lol

Oh yes i am over the whole breakup with Tucker, My eating problems have come back once again and im probley at the edge of being anorexic. i probley am anorexic now but i i eat anyway this evening and now i even had a cruch bar for a snack. I know i dont really want to eat but i need too. I eat hardly anything for 3 days striaght. But i am gowing back to my old self again so that good.

Um i dont really self harm that much anymore really. I still kinda have depression but i may be over it pretty much but it always comes back hard on me in winter so i probley still have it. hmmm still single, i kinda have a relief with being single cuz it cuases problems for me and stresses me out at times soooo yeah haha! im still opened to it but may be single for a while, i cant find anybody that will go out with me1 ): no im not that deperate when the time comes it will come.

So yes there is good and bad right now and i need to be strong and i need people who will support me (:

Hows life with you???

oh cool, HII!!!
how are you

Hey there! No problem.
Aw, thanks. Hehe.
How're you doingg?
<3

Hey I'm doing alreet thanks Haha, the A&D forum is pretty sweet
How about you? Hope everything's going well for you

Hey Meera! Welcome to the forums!
I noticed you hadn't had any messages yet, so I though I'd come introduce myself
I'ma Jess! I've been around for a few months now, and I have to say, it's a real cool place you've joined! I see you've already made some freinds here; TH is full of totally awesomesauce people!Another thing, your avatar is beautiful! <3 One of the prettiest I've seen in ages
Yayy, well, I hope to see you around! Before I go, I just thought I'd point you in the direction of our beautiful Arrivals and Departures forum You should go check it out!
Take care x