QueenSad22 Offline

Today is dress as your favourite rockstar, so I decide lets go as Amy Winehouse. I can't walk in heels but that's all she fucking wore, and I still need to do my eyeliner.

You are my bestfriend. You are the best. But the way you acted this morning made me feel like you don't care.

I do care. I know I fucked up, and I know there's nothing I can do. You deserve a better friend than me. I deserve what's coming for me. I will alway's miss being your best friend...

I'm gonna be honest. I do miss her yes but she was pushing me away. -\ ��/- also she had some many friends, she just obviously didn't care enough about them.

Lost my "bestfriend". That's alright. I always knew it would happen, I don't care.

I just read her thing. Used to trust? Ok ok, you mad talk to my straight up. Or just fuck off.

My bestfriend broke up with her boyfriend. He loved her a lot. He carved her name into his wrist. Now I have to keep an eye on him to make sure he doesn't kill himself or harm himself. He is one of my close friends, I feel bad for both of them but the thing is, he only lied to keep us as a friend, so we would like him, so there wouldn't be an argument. But whatever. She says I can talk to her but when I do she goes behind my back and says all I do is talk about myself. That's why I've been so quiet lately, I don't wanna say anything, everyone just gets mad. They react as if I just shot them in the foot. I'm going away for the weekend, hopefully I'll rethink everything. I'll figure shit out. I don't care if anyone gets mad for me going away for the weekend, my choice. I wish I would stop overthinking about her saying "I'm gonna drop her next year." It hurt to hear, especially since it was behind my back when she was mad. Yes I believe it's over. But still hurts.

Another thing. Wil stayed the night. If he is still there this weekend, I'm going to ask the person I'm going to see to drive me back to Lornes. Or I will longboard there. I can't stand him, and if I have a phone I will message mom and tell her that if he doesn't leave I will.

You're not fucking stupid. So stop. You're smart and amazing and you're angry yes. But that's okay. This is life for us. There's always gonna be those bad days, but there are good days. I miss Lucy too, but she's gone. You gotta fine something that makes you happy other that what you can't have. But remember that life is full of ups and downs. Just keep living. And you can talk to me any time you want to.

Idk how I feel anymore. I mean I'm happy Wil is out but, doesn't make my life any better. I wish I was able to go to Ingersoll to see Lorne. That was my get away, I was sorta happy when I was able to escape. But ever since my mom sold Lucy, my husky, I've had an anger issue. I'm going off topic, but I can't focus, I can't keep track of anything, I feel... Stupid. This is fucking dumb..

It was fun. Lol.