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Yeah, lol. Prozac has more side effects than...effects. I woke up at 5am, too!

Fair enough.
I started on a medication a couple of weeks back, it makes me drowsy. It also makes me wake up earlier, but I fall back to sleep.

yeah it is wow, I bet that's an amazing place to live

But it's warm, so how are you cold?
I fell asleep again. Not much. What are you up to?

YES! I am so excited. Finally. Independence.

Yeah, it sucks. We don't see our paths really... fitting together in the future. Our life goals are really different... its complicated. Yeah... it helps to still talk to him. But that hurts a lot too. Because he responds to me differently than normal. And that is deeply upsetting. Thank you so much.

Aww gosh. Summer homework is never fun. I'm sorry. Haha yeah, it will be fun. I am excited, but it will also be very different.

Thank you and it is okay. I am really enjoying the new position. It is like I get to volunteer to go into chat. I haven't run a FCRD in a while so I can't wait to get back in to those. That is really why I applied for the position; I want to get more involved in the FCRD and I knew that wouldn't happen unless it was part of my volunteering duty.

Aw, thank you! That's alright, I'll still read it!

Hey, I blog all the time! Blogging is great I'll definitely read yours when it's up. Here it is, It's called Broken Beyond Repair.

I cannot let go of the past.
I'm always contemplating which day should be my last.
Life is a beautiful lie, death is the ugly truth.
It's all about fighting the battles of your youth.

I wish I was someone other than me.
I'm fighting to make the mirror happy.
The weight I lose is never enough.
This is life, It's time to get tough.

While I'm starving to be thin,
I cut to release the pain from within.
As I watch my pain bleed out,
I am silent, but I want to shout.

Anxiety makes me unable to breathe.
Screw this life, I want to leave.
Anxiety keeps me up all night.
I don't have much more of a fight.

I hide my depression with a smile.
As life flashes before me, I'm in denial.
Everything looks so bleak.
I am tired, and so weak.

I'm tired of living in this hell.
I wish this was my last farewell.
I live my life in constant doubt.
Suicide seems like the only way out.

I lost the battle, not the war.
Someday, recovery will come knocking at my door.

Thanks! I have one of my favorites that I was in the finalists for, I'll go see if I can find it to paste it here. Kind of, but I think I'll be alright, thanks I just updated my blog about it, though.