I just read your blog...and I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way.
Believe it or not, I've felt the same exact way minus the cutting and the suicide. However, if there's something that I would like to say to you it's this: never let your fears get the best of you. Your life is worth something a lot more than you think. True that there are some really ignorant people out there, but that doesn't mean that there aren't any people out there who care. I just want to let you know that even though you may not know me in person, or know what I look like, you can always count on me to be your friend, especially whenever you feel like there's no one you can turn to. When I say these kinds of words, I don't just do it for the heck of it; I stand by those words because I make a promise I'll never break. I hope you never forget that.
Well, actually I just hanged out with someone that I haven't seen for 7 years today surprisingly during dinner. It was really great, and I can't help but really smile about it. I really felt tonight had a lot of meaning to it.
Good luck with that, and don't ever be afraid.