outofbreath Offline

Hi, how are you doing?

Love your username. I'm Melody.

You’re welcome. I’m here if you need anything, too.

I've been doing a little bit better. Jr is driving me up the wall with him saying no all the time. . So I've been trying not to tear my hair out. Lol.

I have been enjoying my job tbh. There are definitely things that are a bit of a struggle but I think with time I'll get used to it. I tend to be able to keep relatively calm during flashbacks. I tend to just get really emotional after they pass. The last ones I had were pretty bad and I am not sure how I sat through the class without having to leave. I think it's part of my ability to ground myself. I am hoping to learn more grounding techniques from a therapist that I found and have been working with. I am glad to hear that you are doing well at the moment. I know it can be difficult when emotions are all over the place. I hope that gets better.

Hey I wanted to say thank you for the comment on my blog. It just feels like I am always being judged for how I raise my son and it sucks. I appreciate your words very much. How are you doing?

Thank you. It is awesome to be working but I've been dealing with flashbacks and things like that so it's made it more difficult. I think the flashbacks are due to the new change though so hopefully they will quiet down sometime soon. It's just not fun training and dealing with flashbacks. I think that I will learn to cope. My job isn't bad. I know a lot of people end up not liking it but I kind of think that what I'll end up doing would be helpful to a lot of people so that makes me happy. I will be dealing with customer service related stuff so some people might not be happy with me but I am okay with that. I judge myself too harshly. I did well in my first portion of training today but judged myself harsher than I should have. I am definitely my own worst critic. How are you doing?

I recently got a job after not being able to work due to my mental health. It's all really scary especially because the jobs a pretty good one. I worry a lot about making it through everything and keeping the job. Everyone tells me to give it a year though so that's what I'm going to do. If I can't do it in a year I'll start looking for a different job. I think a lot of it is just anxiety. Thank you, I try to be strong but sometimes I don't feel that way. It's nice when someone tells me that. Also, thank you for listening, it means a lot.

It's really hard to take care of yourself when no one else's seems to give a crap. I've been there. I hope that things will improve for you with time. I'm doing okay. There have been some big changes for me this past month and so I've been overwhelmed at times. I think it will get okay eventually.

Just dropping by to say hi. I read your blogs but don't currently have a lot of advice to give. If you ever need someone to listen you can pm/vm me. My advice might be limited but I'd be happy to support you if I can.