NoHope1 Offline

Well fuck my life. Good bye.

I was planning on being alone but I can't. She's my best friend and she gets me better then I do myself. I hope we never separate again. She's the best person I've ever met! I might be annoying by making all the guys that crush on her running the hell away, but hey, we're still best friends and I'm really happy about that.

So apparently to the whole world I'm a downer. I don't care though. If they don't like the fact that I'm not a "happy" person anymore then they can leave. I got told I was sulking the other day got pissed and then left. I don't care. I also found out that a really cute, chubby, adorable baby that I babysit sometimes has an phenomena. But the baby's dad said that he would be okay. I hope so. Babysitting is the only thing that really makes me smile right now. Even though the one child I babysit seems to hate me. I don't know why either. He only likes me when I bring him to the park and stuff like that. But he's still a really cute kid. Well I'm gonna stop typing. I pulled an all nighter so that I could get everyone else to school. Even though I'm not going cause I'm really tired, I know I should be there trying not to fall asleep in class learning about bullshit that won't get me anywhere in life. Byeeeeee.

I hate life right now. Why do I never end up being the good person or end up being right? I'm loosing people and then getting them back over and over again. It seems like a never ending cycle. And then there's my dumb fuck ass. I can't wake up. I can't be smart. I can't do anything right. I am so done with life right now. I wish I died like I was supposed to when I was born. Maybe then everyone I know would have had a better life not knowing me.

I got high again but this time was different. I got high off the real deal and all I really remember was eating and someone touching my leg.😂 It was fun but I like being in my body and being able to control myself, not be controlled by other things. I'm kinda jealous of my sister right now. The only person I can really call a friend and her had a sleepover. I know it's not big but my sister takes my friends all the time. I know she's better than me and that's why they leave but it still hurts. And Dakotas kinda grouchy right now. I think I know why but then again it's Dakota, she get grouchy over a lot of things so it's kinda really hard to tell. She also won't tell you what's wrong until she's happy and making her happy is hard to do unless there's a HOTTTTTTTTTYYYYY involved.😂😂

I got high the other day with my best friend. It was really fun cause we got high off catnip...

He keeps harming himself. But I don't wanna date him again because what if this happens again? Then what? I dyed my hair black. People say they miss my brown/blonde though. I also might go to a "special" class for high school. I think she's mad at me... I wouldn't be surprised if she is after what just happened. I brought whiskey to school again.

I can give you a really horrid cough. That's all I'm willing to do. Lol.

Shitty, I have math, and we are doing Algebra now. Just fucking kill me.

Okay.
I pulled an all-nighter and my head's pounding from coughing. Yours?