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Posted December 24th 2010 at 05:14 AM by Music In My Heart 120
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I feel soooooooooo huge and obese I literally feel heavy an like crazy overweight although I'm underweight medically .
My ED(eating disorder) tells me beat everyone at their own game and prove that you are not weak an can actually accomplish something that you can be more
And to feel better I have be toned and fit and have no flab ED says, also it tells me that I could
More and prove how strong I amm with things by loosing weight,I know so I feel ED is right...
My ED(eating disorder) tells me beat everyone at their own game and prove that you are not weak an can actually accomplish something that you can be more
And to feel better I have be toned and fit and have no flab ED says, also it tells me that I could
More and prove how strong I amm with things by loosing weight,I know so I feel ED is right...
During Xmas celebration and holiday I will need alot of support and encouragement as I will be panic
Posted December 22nd 2010 at 07:39 PM by Music In My Heart 120
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Holidays are my EDs dominant and most powerful trigger and usually on holidays I can't relax or enjoy myself at all and am very antsy and panicky and uptight mostly because holidays mean food and eating in front of others and there being alot of tempting food .
So I am nervous and scared about upcoming Xmas and not sure how I will be dealing with having to eat more in front of my entire family and ESP since I'm on exercise restriction and that's my number 2 big stressor recently ...
So I am nervous and scared about upcoming Xmas and not sure how I will be dealing with having to eat more in front of my entire family and ESP since I'm on exercise restriction and that's my number 2 big stressor recently ...
Posted December 22nd 2010 at 07:29 PM by Music In My Heart 120
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One of the things for work I need is a doc satement my supervisor an others are worried about my health and don't want me to overdo anything and for safety reasons.
I have to have it in soon or I could be fired which is not a good thing so stressed with makin that work out number 1 stressor recently and it also makes me nervous so that's why I use ED so strongly to cope.
As ED is my coping method for so long andafter eating I usually exercise to calm down...
I have to have it in soon or I could be fired which is not a good thing so stressed with makin that work out number 1 stressor recently and it also makes me nervous so that's why I use ED so strongly to cope.
As ED is my coping method for so long andafter eating I usually exercise to calm down...
Posted December 22nd 2010 at 02:00 AM by Music In My Heart 120
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I can't stand to keep fighting my ED it has so much power over me and I feel like I'm drowning
In pain while ED laughs and gleeful im hurting An no control powerless sighs
Ed hates me and wants me dead tells me that is the way to to be thin is is the greatest way to be
And all. I'm not able to get rid of my Ed on my own I feel so powerless and helpless while Ed laughs laughs and says it won't ever let me go and it will destroy me as a mission
In pain while ED laughs and gleeful im hurting An no control powerless sighs
Ed hates me and wants me dead tells me that is the way to to be thin is is the greatest way to be
And all. I'm not able to get rid of my Ed on my own I feel so powerless and helpless while Ed laughs laughs and says it won't ever let me go and it will destroy me as a mission
Posted August 25th 2010 at 08:40 PM by Music In My Heart 120
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Anyone know how best to cope with depression???
Ive been depressed an it has been to the point where i cry alot an the depression makes eating disorder recovery that much harder !!!!
And it recks havoc with my relationships sometimes depression
it really helps to have a good support system
Ive been depressed an it has been to the point where i cry alot an the depression makes eating disorder recovery that much harder !!!!
And it recks havoc with my relationships sometimes depression
it really helps to have a good support system
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I have talked to my doc and she is already monitoring my health
Posted December 25th 2010 at 05:36 PM by Music In My Heart 120