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read my last thread
i'm leaving

haha, yeah for sure

Thank you so much Tay...
everything you said was right..
The most important thing in my life will always be God, and I don't have time for anyone else so don't worry about what you said about religion.
I'm feeling more positive today.
Thank you for thinking about me <3

Writers block does suck. :/ I used to love writing and I'm looking into taking a creative writing course in the summer term. And I wish you luck on your book and the music thing it sounds like it'd be pretty cool I was writing a novel before but stopped halfway when my writers block (and criticism I was getting) got in the way, and I've written lots of short stories and poems.

Haha, yeah I understand. Well its good you have people to distract you at least

Your a real person... right..

lI see, it makes sense, You just need to keep trying things until you figure out what works the best Oh, you write? Thats awesome, I used to write a lot when I was younger...but Ive been having some serious writers block the past year or two. Its like my brain won't focus on something creative, or words just won't come out. But I want to get back into it

I understand about the sleep thing. My friend has night terrors and she's terrified to go to bed. But these meds, the zopiclone at least, knocks you out after an hour or so. So really, even if you're over thinking or scared to sleep, it just knocks you out, lol. &I used to do that too. I have a bunch of fiends who live all over the country, so in different time zones, so I used to stay up really late on Skype with them. It was really bad when i first started dating my bf who was 4 hours behind me, so we would like talk sometimes until like six in the morning my time lol. But now I live in the same time zone and were both really busy so its not like that anymore lol

yes hes on here...
i'm struggling so much now
so sad

Aw, I understand Well, its good that you acknowledge that it isn't the right answer. I've never done something to actually physically harm myself (I'm prob to chicken, lol). But I have done it something similar once, when I took the max dose of tylenol extra strengths at once to try and numb the emotional pain I was feeling...it wasn't a good idea.
Have you tried other ways of coping with your depression? I've been dealing with it too, and I'm currently on Prozac (I might switch though) and I have a psychiatry referral starting this summer.

And insomnia does suck, you can always try melatonin, or valerian root, they both are really cheap and you can find them in the vitamin section at drugstores. Or you can talk to your family doctor about a prescription one, like zopiclone or something similar. Those really knock you out, lol.

I screwed up everything :,(
its just this guy, he loves me and he asked if i felt the same, i said i don't know and he said I broke his heart :,(. Now we're not speaking and i miss him SO much. I feel sooooooo ba d and i didn't mean to hurt him :,(
I don't deserve anyone :,(

how did you know i'm thinking of leaving TH? x