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Ah, wordiness begets more wordiness. I'd be worried if you wrote, like, ten words in response to my 20 sentences.

Our society's 'equilibrium' point tends to be very leaned towards the loud side. Silent personalities are prone to being looked down upon, and taken advantage of. It is quite unfortunate.

You remind me of one of my all-time favourite quotes:

“The fundamental sign of absence of cultural permission is the lack of words in the language of the dominant culture which would suffice to describe an experience.” – Anthony Temple

I am learning to appreciate silence. All my life, I have been marked by others as 'articulate' (in writing of course, not speaking), and I've always been quite naturally inclined to the use of written language. I used to write so much during my initial years of exploration, all of which was rather exquisite and 'poetic', but ultimately - empty. Real beauty transcends language. As for all of that, it had the appearance of beauty, but turned out to be incredibly fragile and weak at the roots.

Perhaps it is better to use words only when one can do so succinctly and mindfully. I don't know. If one speaks all the time, then they have no space to listen to anything. And there is so much to learn from the world if one really attempts to listen. Perhaps not from your 'typical person' - but rather, from transcendent personalities; from nature; from the universe as a whole.

I am sort of rambling. So much for what I just said, huh.

I am very prone to doubtful thoughts all the same. Maybe there is a way to train myself to not be affected by them; was just thinking earlier..

Words themselves are empty structures, they only have meaning because our minds have been originally trained to attach meanings to them.

For sure.

You are a great person, and I'm sure you have the capacity to go far.

It really is important to keep busy - well, with meaningful activities, that is. Being all bogged down with things to do that one absolutely hates does the exact opposite. Which is a bit of a problem if one finds most things meaningless.

Most.. but not all! Just gotta look harder when that happens; look in places that most folks never notice -

Indeed. I believe that somewhere in the middle point is ideal - just enough to have a clear, sustained awareness that 'this is not for me and I will not find anything worthwhile in it, no matter how much society tries to shove that in my head'. Too much fear and/or disgust is quite counterproductive, and can keep one running in circles for quite a while. Always missing the target, always on the run - in which, eventually you'd expect to get tired and give up.

Indeed. No need to deliberately pay attention to any of that stuff - if one comes across it, acknowledge it and simply move on. It exists, it's out there, and that's all. My own life right now is quite remarkably simple - don't do much, don't see much, don't get caught off guard by unpleasant sights much.

Yes, fear is the word. That fear has been a central influence throughout most of my life; it's quite unfortunate. And it's caused a lot of mental anguish.

I'm beginning to think, however, that the only way out of it is through it. Face the fear head-on - and if I come out of it, then I will be truly free; if not, then I was meant to fail somewhere down the road all along.

I'm sure most people have good intentions. Unfortunately, that doesn't make their very existence any less depressing to observe.

Of course. One can have knowledge without understanding, but not the other way around.

Boring people have this hauntingly powerful effect at making me depressed. Especially since they come in hoards of billions..
The aim of my life has always been, to not become one.

Not all uncommon can be understood though, as knowing does not automatically entail understanding. So you are still interesting.

Uncommon = interesting