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What part of your body is most affected by it?
My upper thigh is affected the most. I started out on my arm, but I started doing it more often, so it became harder to cover up. I don't wear shorts that come above my knees, so I did it on my thigh. I did it on my arm a few months ago when I tried to kill myself, though. Even though my family found out i cut, only my boyfriend has found out about my thigh. I have too many scars there and I don't want anyone to see them. My boyfriend saw them...

I have been cutting myself for almost 6 years now. But, I have been clean for about a month. Yay!
I started because a "friend" told me that it would help me feel better. So, I tried it. I just needed something to take the pain away. And it did. Everytime I did it, I became numb. It felt good. If I didn't do it deep enough, though, I would be in pain. So I have always made sure to cut deep. :\

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
3. What is your motivation to recover?
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
6. What about it do you enjoy?
7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?

9. Have you ever...

I am in a bad place right now.... I keep thinking that I am a complete failure for not being able to finish what I started. Twice. Twice I survived when I shouldn't have. I don't know anymore if I want to be here anymore. I love this site because I can post anything and nobody will judge me.... I just need to vent I guess. It's late and I can't sleep and I am going crazy inside my head. I just don't know what to do anymore. All I know is that I don't really want to be here much longer. The only...

I am trying so damn hard. I can't take this. I'm supposed to be recovering?! If I could find my damn razor, I would cut myself. I have been cut free for how long now, and as soon as I want to do it, I can't. I am tired of hiding everything from everyone I know. Especially my wonderful, loving boyfriend. I HATE hiding things from him. We have been together for 2 years and 6 months, and yet I hide this from him.
Plus, he leaves in less than 2 months for Marines basic training and then...