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Lucky you I honestly think I'm agnostic. I don't believe most of the stuff my parents do and they think I'm into the religion and stuff but its really bad because I honestly did it to please them and it hasn't helped me so far to be into the religion. There's so much do's and don'ts with being a Christian. It's very frustrating. I'm pretty sure I'm about to leave it all behind though. I really want to move out but my parents won't let me. :/

I feel like my mom tries to be like me sometimes because I'm all about black and she will say stuff like "She's just like me, I love black" but, she doesn't wear black at all so its very stupid of her to say in my opinion Since I'm so pale I wear sheer tights under my shorts (white girl issues ) and my dad hates it xD I'm honestly thinking of dyeing my hair anyway but my dad hasn't given me an official answer so I might just ask him if he decided if I can dye my hair or not and then decide from there. (Sorry for all the blabbing! )

I'm better now. I'm still pissed with my parents but its alright. I've had serious self harm urhes the past couple of days but for some odd reason, I've been afraid to cut myself. It's really odd. Awh, don't be sad I'm here for you

Same for me! Also, since my family is very religious its hard for me to express myself without seeming totally "evil" and different compared to everyone else I know. I can barely get away with being goth xD

I really wanna go to the anime convention now But I know you'll have fun and yay for friends going with you

I was utterly depressed and suicidal all day until earlier tonight. How are you doing?

Yeah, it sucks how my parents are like this. I honestly feel like I can barely be myself because of them. My mom doesn't care but my dad is just controlling. I was sad all day yesterday and my dad asked me last night if something upset me and it was really irritating because I know he was trying to play with my emotions and stuff. But anyway..

I hope it works out with your hair xD ^^ Awh, I'm glad you are having fun but I know what it's like to want to be home again after such a long trip Haha, I'm sorry you can't use Kissanime. I can barely go one day without watching anime so I know how it feels

I'm glad you're feeling better I'm sorry your friend made such a rant though

It's okay, it was for the better like you said I'll be fine. I'm not doing so good today. My depression has been pretty bipolar today. It's about time though, I've been numb for about a week so it's pretty typical for me. I also asked my dad about dying my hair and it didn't go well

When do you return home?

Yep, i love honey-senpai but i think hikaru and haruki make an adorable couple. I think i'm more lobelia than ouran

Thank you! I will let you know tomorrow evening (if I remember xD).

I'm sorry you're sad maybe they wont be so biased once they know you are trans? Some parents do that, I know mine make rude remarks about things but then when I opened up they tend to stop making rude remarks. Although I haven't ever been through something like this, maybe your parents will also stop once you open up to them about coming out as trans? Just some random thoughts (haha, random thoughts are my forte ). I'm sure your friends miss you but, I can relate to you on how you think they wouldn't. Since I don't have any friends really anymore it's very hard for me to be alone at times but I'm glad I have you to talk to.

I'm not sure if I told you or not but, I did end up cutting things off with my LDR. It was really sad but its for the best and I know its time for me to grow up a little bit and try taking care of myself without having to depend on people for me to get what I want. But, alas, I'm rambling again

I'm always here for you, Lily and I will support you no matter what happens ♥

Awh, you are as well I'm doing alright. I'm going to my community college to go take that English placement test. I'm pretty confident I can ace it since all I have to do is write an essay on one of two topics. :3

How are you doing?

I totally understand! I hope it goes well too I'm here to support you in any way I can

Chobits, oran hshc, pokemon, yu-gi-oh

You're welcome but, I'm being very honest with you I'm glad you are doing okay and I know how annoying it is to be with parents all the time, especially when they hang over you like mine literally do on vacations/trips xD I'm glad you had some freedom today though. It helps a lot to be able to take a break from some people