Lilyofthewest Offline

Oh my god that's awful. I'm so sorry to hear how you have been today. It makes me really sad and I feel so bad that I wasn't there for you today You could have messaged me on Skype, hun. Your messages pop up on my phone. I hope you're safe and alright and I really wish I could hug you right now but I guess a virtual hug will have to do Know that I love you ♥

You're welcome. Ah, alright.
(It was a similar situation between an ex-friend of mine and my closest friend if I look back on it, they stopped being friends because my ex-friend and a friend of hers felt more highly of themselves (because of a boy that my closest friend and ex-friend both liked) and my ex-friend somehow had a better chance and not to mention that she spoke about my closest friend behind her back in front of me- baring in mind I was the one stuck in the middle as I was in the same tutor as my ex-friend and the whole ordeal that started all of this was the day I fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle and had to go home so I was expected to be some sort of peackeeper when I returned to school- and how she gloated about doing good in music and drama, like please, she's not the queen so there's no bragging rights, no need to rub it in because I don't show how I feel like utter crap... ugh.) xP

I'm okay. I've been at the hospital all day with my friend. She isn't doing so well today. She can't eat anything and her mouth is swelling from her tonsils removal surgery. I've missed you today

Thanks. I've been losing sleep by just worrying and trying not to have panic attacks, I've been losing half the day because I eventually sleep (though it's nothing special, I spend the times I am awake doing nothing, my life is pathetic ).
Oh, I hope you feel better (in all honesty I think that sucks, I hope everything gets sorted out but if not then it's your friends' fault for losing out on a friend like you because you are a great person. ^^)

Ahh dang. xP

I'm fine, but I don't know whether I'm feeling somehow content or anxious- it's sort of fluctuating, it's been keeping me up at night because my anxiety is scaring me (it doesn't help I have an appointment on August 3rd... woo...).
How about you?

That's cool, my wall's sort of full of anime posters too (mostly Attack on Titan along with two Free! posters, I need to expand it though, it's not enough to my liking xD).
Oh... your friends probably do care for having you around they may not show it much, could be like my friends and how we all care for each other yet we don't show it because we're too busy doing our own thing, I don't know what some of mine think of me for not talking to them for months so I'm just in a state of avoidance save for a couple of them (and let me tell you, the first time I went to a convention- it was Eurogamer I believe- I ended up bickering with my stepdad which caused us to leave early and he was annoyed at me because he angered me. He kept saying he was bored as my stepbrother and I walked around, taking it all in and not having a clue to decide what to do).

I love you too and, I read your post and I'm sorry you feel confused about your sexuality. I'malways here for you though, no matter what you choose I hope you get some rest and sleep well Don't worry, its totally understandable. I'll talk with you tomorrow <3

That would be so much fun. I need you in my life like right now xD you would make my life so much better I'm sure your hugs are amazing :3 I wish it could happen ._. What are you confused about if its alright to ask? Hope you sleep well

It's alright (it actually happens to me as well, I think I send a message when it somehow hasn't, but anyways...)

That's good. Ooooh, what did you get?
Ahh, at least you had fun, and that's what counts!

I forgot to ask, how was the convention? I hope you enjoyed yourself!