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oO YAY! and aw i hope things are better over there, i know the feeling of wanting to get high just to make things go away. im very proud of you too!!!! lol.
yeah its difficult over here...the funeral is this week i dont think i'm going to be that great and all. i had an awesome night friday night tho, went to a party...drank...and stayed with basically 5 guys--not that way! i was staying with my guy friend who shares a huge suite with 4 other guys. it was hilarious thats probably the highlight of my week. that and getting 'locked' out of my house till 5am--the door was actually open and i totally forgot to try turning the knob the other way

not exactly, i starved myself and skipped breakfast, lunch, and almost dinner but tehn the hunger kicked in and im so used to eating food, i couldnt take it anymore. so i made myself cheese and crackers and eat em, then 2 pieces of toast with butter and peanut butter. i am litterly FALLING APART. i feel soooooo terrible and disqusting now. i hate it. i actullay thought i was gonna kill myself for a while after my friend treated me like toatal crap over the phone for no reason, idk what to do not. im definately not going to a hospital cuz i know i can beat this. i know i dont have an eating disorder but im probley headed for one soon if i do this for another 2 weeks or so. what should i do? 0:

Thanksyou

Oh thats great!!!! i know its hard with the relapse and stuff, im having a relasp myself, i guess im just gonna be anorexic (:

lol it kinda sounds like me. at times tho. hmm well dont do that its not good. you gotta face the facts and realize right now a lot of what you are doing are the easy outs, the ones that are temporary. yea its np at all! jeez have some faith in yourself!
and sigh my gramps passed away last night, i was there holding his hand...funerals next week and all i want to do is just lie down i guess. my dad wants each of the grandchildren to say a paragraph..i dont want to

OMG!
I'm sorry you feel that way!! Hug!
What happened that has made you do this to yourself??
It's not worth hurting yourself, when there is so much in life to smile about. That is something I have to learn to listen to myself too though!! I'm sure you'll feel better!
They say that "the worst is a sign that it's nearly over"! Look at it this way, if you never feel sandpaper, how would you know that velvet is velvet??
HUGS!
Take care Lotsa love! <3

aw dont be cutting and stuff, meh then who would i talk to? the good thing about having a shitty time is theres always a better time. you can pull through it, start by working on not cutting.
meh hes in the hospital and im going to basically say goodbye tomorrow. lifes a mess...i cant focus on any work

Hey Rosie!
How are you??!! Been a while! But I'm back now!
Missed you! How are things on your side?
Hugs

thanks, im really not feeling well atm tho. i havent really eaten today or yesterday. when i got back to my dorm i sat down, didnt wnat to move, cried, and felt like throwing up. sigh thanks again. how have you been tho?

meh you too, my day has been so so but now it is bad-my gramps is doing really bad.