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“Pills and potions

We’re overdosing

I’m angry but I still love you

Pills and potions

We’re overdosing

Can’t stand it, but I still love you”

You know what fucking sucks?? I can't be upset. I can't be angry. I can't say anything because he's not mine. I can't say anything because I'm fucking terrified. I can't say anything because I'd rather feel pain a thousand times worse than this, than risk the chance that I'll lose him.

Fuck
Why can't I be a good writer
Why can't I put my feelings into words
I wish I could say how amazing your eyes are, how amazing your nose is
And oh god your smile
Why can't I put into words how I feel about you
So someone
Anyone
Would understand how fucking insane I'm going
But all I can say is this
Sometimes I want to reach over and grab your hand
And sometimes it's 4am on a Tuesday
And my heart is beating...

I miss you when I'm alone at night. When the world is asleep. When the moon and stars are out. I remember how we stayed up gazing at them, making wishes that we'd hope would come true one day. I miss you when I'm alone at night, when every thought I have is of you. I miss you when I'm alone at night, I miss your arms around me, legs tangled together, hands entertwined, my head on your chest, listening to your heartbeat.

I miss you when I'm awake. It doesn't matter where I am, it doesn't...

No matter how many love songs you listen to, it doesn't change the fact that you are alone. Absolutely alone.