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okay. i'll be in chat

Woah woah woah! There is absolutely no need to stop talking about or to that guy! you deserve happiness. I'm glad you've found someone that makes you happy. Anyway, how have you been?

I'm not really sure how I am supposed to take your lack of response to my vm from 4 days ago. if you don't want to talk to me thats fine, but please say so. if you do, kindly have the decency to at least finish our conversation about whether or not our friendship is continuing.

i did tell someone, but i didn't want to mention it to other people or blog about it because i thought you were keeping it a secret. i was going to quit teenhelp, because scrolling through the new blogs, and seeing you talk about him made me feel so worthless that i wanted to curl up into a ball, and never wake up. I really care about you and i do want to be your friend even though talking to you hurts right now. and it's hard for me to accept that you weren't willing to work to try to coordinate when we were online so we could talk more than once every several days. it's selfish of me, i know. i should be happy for you. its just i feel people walk out of my life constantly- my gf and my best friend three months after i was molested and they decided im to much of a burden and stop talking to me, my aunt who i used to see every week and now only hear from once every half a year or more because she wont return phone calls and she moves alot, two therapists who told me they couldnt handle me, or didn't have time for me, charlotte - after half a year of talking almost daily who i havent heard from in two months. life is too lonely so i keep trusting that maybe this relationship will be different. maybe this one, or this one. maybe THIS one someone will fight for the relationship as hard as i do. it's selfish i'm not instantly happy for you, but i guess i just wanted to be happy too.

YIKESSS I LOVEYOUUUU

you know what's fantastic? a day after we break up you're posting blogs about this guy youre infatuated with. if you liked some guy why did you suggest trying a relationship anyway? you probably didn't even care enough about the relationship enough to tell anyone we were together in the first place, which is why i expect you to promptly delete this. you're embarassed of me, aren't you? besides, if you don't have time to talk to me, WHAT THE FUCK is the point of still being friends?