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Hey!


Well, I've been heartbroken plenty of times before and everyone I truly loved and were closest to me ended up leaving or somehow drifting away or something. Yeah, it hurts a lot. But I, being me, can't stop loving other people. I just love loving other people, I don't know why! So I learnt to be (kinda) immune to heartache. Now, it doesn't hurt when they leave me. It doesn't hurt when we drift apart. Because I expect it to happen and I'm ready for it. As you said, nobody is permanent in your life. So I just love them as much as I can when they're around because I may not be able to later on. I mean, if we only have this limited amount of time together, I aint holding anything back, you know? If there's only so much time I have with you, I'm not going to waste most of it being careful and trying not not to get too close to you. I'd get close to you as soon as I can, Id love you and I'd show you that I do, I'd make you happy as much as I can right now because I can't make you happy later on. And then when the time comes, I'll accept it, I'll move on. It'll be hard but I'll survive. I'll find someone else I can pour out my love to. This doesn't even make sense, does it?


Aww, I'm so touched! And yeah, done deal, but you'll never hear me say you're boring because I simply love listening. I love listening to what people have to say even if it's just ranting and complaining. You're never going to bore me.


Well, here's a bit of harsh reality for you. It doesn't matter how much I love people, the truth is that nobody will care for me as much as I care for them. That's just the way it is and I've accepted that. It used to hurt before, but now I'm cool with it. I've accepted that people are just unable to care for me the way I do for them. But I'm touched that you'll try. I appreciate that, you don't know how much that means to me.


Yeah, I always find the initial part of the friendship very hard, which is why I don't make new friends a lot. But you've been easy to talk to so far.


That's great to hear! It's great that you're taking care of your body, eating right and staying fit. But you don't really have to experiment with makeuo if you're not the makeup kinda girl. Because, honestly, you're beautiful just the way you are. You are simply amazing. And you're a good person, inside. Your appearance is not what matters. What you are as a person is what matters. You know how every girl wants a guy that'll love you for you and not your appearance? Well, maybe you should take a piece of your own advise. Love yourself for who you are. It doesn't matter what you look like. You're beautiful either way. And yeah, loving your personality can be hard when you hate yourself. But I used that annoying voice as an advantage. Everytime it pointed out something bad in me, I'd analyse if that's true or just me. If it was true, I'd work on changing that and becoming a better person. Try listing down what you ARE good at and what you like about yourself and read them to yourself everyday. If you find that hard, (self-hate does make the listing hard.) maybe you could ask your friends or family, the ones that truly know you, to tell you what they love about you and what makes you amazing. Convince yourself that you ARE amazing and whatever makes you feel like you aren't, work on changing that. Hope that helps, it did for me! Remember, though, becoming a better person is a never-ending process, so you need to be satisfied with who you are to a certain extent.


Ahh well, I'm working on being more social. My Social Anxeity Disorder does make that a little harder, though. You do have a point, though. Thank you for pointing that out, it might help me work harder on that.


Yeah, you do joke around a lot and I love that about you! I'm not easily offended, either. Feel free to express your opinion, don't ever worry about it offending me!


Aww, I'm so touched! You have no idea how it feels to read your messages... I simply love reading them! I wouldn't agree with being one of the happiest, though. Masks can be deceiving. Seriously, I just pretend to be happy because I find that it makes other people happier too, for some reason. Well, that's just one of the reasons I pretend. To be honest, I don't think I've experienced true happiness that lasted more than a couple of moments at all in the last 18 months or so. But don't you worry about me!


So, we're officially friends now? Yay! I'm looking forward to getting to know you better. Take care!


See you around!
Love. - xx


P.S. I'm really sorry about the length, I just lose track of the length when I type. It's like a part of me, I always type way too much.

Hey!

Well, I'm honoured, thank you! Yeah, the world could do with a bit more love, though. Everybody's got stone hearts, it's like people are ashamed to love, afraid to love someone they don't know. I don't see what's wrong in loving someone you don't know. I mean, everyone deserves love and you're denying them love just because you don't know them? Well, that's just what I believe and I always try to bring more love into the world, teach people to love, kinda. I don't even know if I make sense right now.

But yeah, I'm generally a sweet, loving and gentle person (I hope it doesn't sound like I'm boasting or anything. :/ ) I know that for a fact only because people always tell me that. But it makes me very sensitive too, and when I give out love, I have this awful habit of wanting to receive the same treatment from others, you know? Somewhere deep inside, I expect people to treat me the way I treat them, but that never happens () and it kinda disappoints me.

You're definitely not boring to talk to. I'd never get bored talking to you, but in case I did, I'd let you know first. Hey, it's fine to not be very social, I know what that's like. I'm a loner and recluse in real life.

Yeah, you probably should learn to love yourself more. You can only learn to truly love others once you've learnt to truly love yourself. But self hate is hard to deal with and zi'm struggling with the same thing, so I couldn't advise you on that.

Yeah, I love my roller coaster life, I aint complaining! Being bipolar kinda has to do with the bigger curves and the faster speed, I guess, but that just makes it a lot more fun. Straight lines? Hell no!

See you around!
Love. - xx

P.S. I think I love talking to you, so you better work on that talking to strangers problem you have cuz I'm never gonna stop talking to you.

Hey Jess!

Lol, I didn't really notice because I've been busy lately, so I haven't been on TH a lot But I did get warm welcomes in the Arrivals & Departures sub-forum, I loved it

Yeah, I remember that! Again, I liked the poem a lot, nice work Ahh well, it comes along with my depression, among other issues, and it does push us to become better people (though it is annoying almost all the time )

Ehh, kinda, life is like a roller coaster ride, full of ups and downs, you know? The fact that I'm bipolar is NOT helping I'd love to get to know you too, hopefully I'll find the time to PM you soon.
Ahh, I feel honoured that I'm an exception. Nah, there's nothing to apologise for, it was actually nice hearing from you Thank you for dropping by and taking the time.

P.S. Why would you think it's more of a curse? You're nice. And your VM was a friendly gesture, that IS more of a blessing You don't find nice people everywhere, you know

See you around!
Love. - xx

So far everything is good haha. How are you?

Nice, i like You Are Not Alone.. I guess M in the same position as u before u discovered rock music maybe M more into him than u were.. Ive got all his songs - 10 studio albums N 2 posthumous albums.. I luv Billie Jean, thats my fav <3 Thriller doesnt appeal to me like others, i wonder why.. No, I tried listening to others but none appealed to me like MJ does.

Hey Jess my name's Nandan I'm from India.. Thanks fr d welcome Yea I love Michael Jackson not only for his musical genius but for several other stuff as well.. Personal stuff Which song u listenin to? Ive listened to almost all his songs..

I'm a fan of Macklemore and Dan Bull. Not a huge fan of the generic rap formula mainstream rappers use so there's not a lot of them that I like.

Hey Jess

Favorite Eminem songs? Hmm... gosh its a long list but I'd have to say:

My Name Is, '97 Bonnie and Clyde, Just Don't Give a ****, The Way I Am, I'm Back, Criminal, Kill You, Stan, The Real Slim Shady, White America, Business, Cleanin' Out My Closet, Square Dance, Soldier, Without Me, Sing for the Moment, Superman, Hailie's Song, 'Till I Collapse, Love You More, Like Toy Soldiers, Mosh, Evil Deeds, Just Lose It, Mockingbird, 3 A.M, Hello, We Made You, Beautiful, Underground, Forever, Elevator, Talkin' 2 Myself, Won't Back Down, Going Through Changes, Not Afraid, No Love, Space Bound, 25 to Life, Love The Way You Lie, You're Never Over, Difficult (early Proof Tribute), Lose Yourself, Fast Lane, Lighters, I Need A Doctor, My Life, and Drop The World

There's some songs in there that he was only featured in but yeah there it is LOL. Told you it'd be a long list

hey Jess how've you been?
I've missed you