Intoxicated Brutality Offline

So how is your day going ?

Nikki I stopped because I don't want to argue with you. I do believe you have someone in real,life even if some of your friends turned there back on you. I know you can't, and I know they wont but they probably could have. I get that its not the same, you will find people in real life too. Your welcome . <3. I get that it is easier because hell have the stuff I tell you I wouldn't tell someone in real life. Ya it sucks. Oh I see, ya I don't understand why they don't put the tarp stuff down that's what my parents do thank God. Maybe . I completely failed my mom woke me up and I went back to sleep try again tomorrow I guess.

i love school. i start back in 25 days. yayyy. i love most all of it. gym not as much. i didnt get my art teacher i had for last two years this year ): im going to try to be on yearbook comittee

Why's that? Do you turn into a lobster like I do?

I really can't say i understand Nikki, i am fortunate enough that i have never had anyone commit suicide that i know, i have had someone come close. I do understand however the fact that you're "friends" are being asses. end of. I don't get why they wouldn't listen, help or do anything they could for you. Hell, i am sure a lot of things you did because of Nae killing herself could have been prevented if they had been there for you. I really don't understand it, i can't pretend to and i wont. The only real thing i can say is you do have true friends, you might know all of them in real life. but you do have some you can always count on, Bayhorse, me, and who knows how many others. We may not be real life friends, but we can be almost as good as them. . I truthfully can say i wish you hadn't had to go through that, i can't imagine the pain of having someone close to you commit suicide . Ya, they do alright the first day, but then after that it all goes to hell. Ya not at all :/. you have a garden? or just some flowers? If i think it turns out good i will put it on here . if not i might just text you a picture of it unless it turns out plainly horrible then it will be trashed and no one will ever no it existed DX. Ya i know, i would have been sad if something happened to him but thankfully nothing did . well, good night <3 hope you have a good day tomorrow. (im gonna have a fun time trying to get up at 7:45 DX)

Theres no maybe to it Nikki, i would bet everything i had on it that someone cares about you. My mom is allergic to the patches and the gums never worked for her :/. Ya, i hate everytime the try to stop because the few days it lasts are like hell in a house x 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 0. Ohh fun, not really i need to mow, i have an idea for a drawing im going to try to do. Im gonna try and get up early to mow so i should probably go to bed soon DX. oh ya i forgot to tell you about my gecko when i was lifting him out of his cage he jumped out of my hand, i figured he had hit the ground and was dead or badly hurt so im looking for him, and all of a sudden i look straight ahead, and he had grabbed hold of one of the drawers of my dresser(thats what his cage is on) i was like wow, your a lucky gecko .

.... ok one thing first, i know for a fact SOMEONE CARES ABOUT YOU! you really do need to stop telling yourself that no one does, i will guarantee you people care about you, some might not act like it, but they do........ Ya i know, it is like quite a bit of money and i never understood why people do it, and my mom wants to stop but my dad can't do it unless its cold turkey and she can't do it like that so it pretty much doesnt happen. Ya, i heard that from some of my friends. any plans for tomorrow?

How in the world do you make that face because I would love to learn
Oh I believe you...maybe

you were just mindlessly drinking? ok no offence but that is kind of stupid your lucky you didn't get alcohol poisoning DX. Ok really? you don't think people you know in real life would be sad or miss you for very long? you had a friend do the same thing and you know how it feels and you really think no one would miss you....? I have no idea, i know my dad's are like $5 something a pack and he smokes 2 a day and my mom smokes 1 so there goes like $18+ a day once you include tax..... Ya, i don't really smell it much anymore because of how long i have been around it but, i know how bad it is :/. true, i figure most are.

Haha nice try to cover up