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Not terrible, thanks, you?
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About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Becky
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- USA
- About
- About me
- Hi, I'm becky. I read almost all the time and write poems (there's a few in my blog if you want to check them out). I'm a christian but i dont care if you are or not. i like making new friends so add me if you want. I also support To Write Love On Her Arms (TWLOHA) and the National Eating Disorder Association. I'm hear to help so if you ever need to talk about anything just PM me anytime and i will get back to you as soon as posable.
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- Single
- Sexuality
- Heterosexual/Straight
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- High School
- Religion
- Christian
- Zodiac sign
- Leo
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Art, horses, poetry
- Music
- Flyleaf, Super Chick, Skillet, Paramore, Avril Lavigne, Evanescence, Fireflight, secondhand serinade, and much more
- Movies
- Any thing with Johnny Depp
- Television
- Once Apon a Time, Dance Academy, Revaluation
- Games
- Kingdom Hearts
- Books
- Life In Spite of Me, Thirteen Reasons Why, Hunger Games, The Mortal Instruments, The Infernal Devices, The House of Night, and many more.
- Sports
- Volley ball, Swimming
- Heroes
- Demi Lovato, Renee Yohe
- Favorite quotes
- "Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you will fall apart no matter how strong you are."
"Tell them to look up, tell them to remember the stars. The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and in the clouds, we miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope." ~ Renee Yohe - Other interests
- To Write Love On Her Arms
Blog
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Latest Blog Entry
Posted in Uncategorized
Slowly falling,
Losing sight of all she has accomplished.
Music plays lound in her headphones,
Expressing what she won't say.
She dosn't know how to keep trying,
So she just sits there.
Staring at nothing,
Thinking of what has happened and whats to come.
Her thoughs become crowded,
Until it feels like she has to swim through glue to do anything.
She trys to think of ways to clear her thoughs,
But only knows one way,...
Losing sight of all she has accomplished.
Music plays lound in her headphones,
Expressing what she won't say.
She dosn't know how to keep trying,
So she just sits there.
Staring at nothing,
Thinking of what has happened and whats to come.
Her thoughs become crowded,
Until it feels like she has to swim through glue to do anything.
She trys to think of ways to clear her thoughs,
But only knows one way,...
Posted in Poems
Afraid to leave the house
I hate to hear what they say
But I guess it's true
Because I believe it all now too
They tell me I'm worthless
That I need to kill myself
What they don't know is that I'm close to doing that my own
I don't need their encouragement
I cut my wrist to show the pain that words cannot describe
To show how much i hate myself on my own body
They don't know I do it or that I starve myself and throw up hoping...
I hate to hear what they say
But I guess it's true
Because I believe it all now too
They tell me I'm worthless
That I need to kill myself
What they don't know is that I'm close to doing that my own
I don't need their encouragement
I cut my wrist to show the pain that words cannot describe
To show how much i hate myself on my own body
They don't know I do it or that I starve myself and throw up hoping...
Posted in Poems
A razor down my wrist
As I give night one sweat last kiss
My room is dark, my music blasts
No one hears my sobs
I get lightheaded and feel my body hit the floor
My bones break...
I'm now so fragile, so small
I realize the blood now...
I'm in a puddle of it
For a moment I am terrified
But then I realize this is what I want...
To free everyone from me
To get away from this horrible place
My life is gone... I am free of...
As I give night one sweat last kiss
My room is dark, my music blasts
No one hears my sobs
I get lightheaded and feel my body hit the floor
My bones break...
I'm now so fragile, so small
I realize the blood now...
I'm in a puddle of it
For a moment I am terrified
But then I realize this is what I want...
To free everyone from me
To get away from this horrible place
My life is gone... I am free of...
Posted in Poems
My stomach twists with hunger.
But I don't care.
My mom said i could not cut.
What she does not know will not hurt her.
Only me.
I want to be free of this world.
I want to be home with my God.
I wonder why i have to stay here.
I can't do anything right.
I can't help people.
Can i please just leave?
But I don't care.
My mom said i could not cut.
What she does not know will not hurt her.
Only me.
I want to be free of this world.
I want to be home with my God.
I wonder why i have to stay here.
I can't do anything right.
I can't help people.
Can i please just leave?
Posted in Uncategorized
I look happy right? Haha i think thats one of my biggest lies... I'm hardly ever happy.. I wear bright colors and a fake smile that no one can see through.... No one in my family knows that i starve myself... They dont know that i still cut... They think i stop months ago... I did try to stop but i can't.. I dont know if I'll ever be able to.. or if I'll ever be the same again... Right now my only hope is to be skinny and beautiful.. and then when i am that i will be able to stop cutting and that...
