Guardian_Angel Offline

I got a text from your e-mail a while ago. one of those stupid you clearly didn't send it kind of things. I can't delete it. I keep thinking someday again, maybe it will actually be you.

<3 Wish you were here.

I miss you. You were a great friend.

Any time I see your name on my friends list I start thinking about you. I wish we had talked more, I really do. I'm starting a new chapter in my life now and you are forever stuck in the same one.

I've kind of been thinking about you a lot lately. And I miss the hell out of you. That last month...well, I was busy and I didn't take the time out. I'm sorry. I just, I don't know. I wish we could talk more, and I wish that when I talked to you, it was really you answering.
I hope you're happy where you are. x

I can't help but think that I would be a better person if I'd had the chance to know you longer. I still think about you sometimes, and I hate myself for not helping you enough. I always thought we'd have more time. I'm sorry.

I am trying not to still be angry with you, for leaving without me. For leaving at the only point in my life that you knew I couldn't follow you. It hurts so bad to think you are gone that I truly believe the pain of being shot twenty times would be less than the pain of losing you. I am not a religious person. I keep trying to be, so that I truly believe in my heart that you're not completely gone. I can't stand the thought of you completely gone. The steps of grief are bullshit. The person who wrote them, never felt the kind of grief I felt. I would give my life to talk to you. I will give my life like I promised, some day. <3

Been over two years now. I miss you. I wish you didn't do it.

I still miss you, Peter.

Help me, Peter. <3