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sure, i get lost in life all the time. (that rhymed )
random is good. i don't really listen to Bjork (just heard of it twice). but i know that many starter music groups do covers of their role model artist. unfortunately, no one can do better than the original. odd, isn't it? lately i've been pretty crazy about the bands from the 80s, dunno why but these headphones can't get off my ears for some reason.

now is weekend, i is doing pretty good. :P not about a tragic incident that happened in my town though. how about you?

Aww why didn't you sleep sweetie?

Hey sweetie. I guess I'm okay. How are you?

well i wish you luck at the dentist. you seem very brave about this.
got lost in my town? okay, i actually didn't because i had a navigator talking to me on the phone, don't ask who it was lolz. :P it took me more than an hour to get to my home, in fast walk. and i was almost at the catholic church which was on the other end...you can't imagine the stress i had then. but funny when look how i was stressed now.

sorry you cant that really sucks, there'll be another time im sure

Okay I guess....

I hope I get better too.
She said she won't tell my mom anything we talk about, unless it has to deal with me wanting to die. That's the only time she'll tell my mom anything.
I'm not worrying about my mom trying to stop me from getting help. I just don't want to get put in a hospital.
I don't know if I can get this sorted out.
Love you too

I was being open with my therapist when I first started seeing her. I think it's gotten worse since I haven't been to see her in like 4 months. I really want to go back to see her, but my mom will wonder why I want to go back. I don't want my mom to find out what's going on. My mom told me that she was going to send me to a hospital if I want to kill myself again. She already gave me a fai warning. I use to visit my therapist every Monday because that was the only day she had open for me. Once I tell her what's going on, she's probably going to be very disappointed...
No need to be sorry. You're just trying to help as much as you can. I won't bother you about my problems. I know you have better things to do, besides sit there and listen to my problems

They probably wouldn't let me be excused from school since my situation happened almost a month ago.
I want to go back to see my therapist, but I don't want to tell her that I want to die because she'll tell my mom to put me in a hospital.
I'm not brave enough to ask people for help. Not with my situation

I wouldn't be able to take some time off school since I do online school.
I always bottle up my feelings because I have no one to talk to about them. Most of the people I talk to about my feelings don't really care.
I don't know who I can talk to... Love you too