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Thanks Holl. Yeah, it's a little weird, I guess. I was never allowed to ask her any medical questions, you know? At first, I thought that she'd want a chance of scene so I always spoke to her about a lot of stuff that was happening, be it with me, or just generally. Although, later when I did bring up anything in regard to her health, she'd stop me and tell me that I was the only one who never pestered her or made her answer questions she didn't want to, and she loved it that way, and that she would tell me if there was anything that was really worth knowing, medically. Otherwise, she'd talk about the nurses and her parents, and the gossip around the hospital and such. And I always liked it that way too. But, the last couple of weeks, month actually, I was quite busy and barely spoke to her. I feel bad. I honestly don't remember our last conversation. It's strange. It's surreal, actually. She seemed to be getting better. Her parents sobbed. To me. I wasn't even there to hold them or comfort them or anything. I felt so bad. I'm just rambling, I'm sorry, I don't really know what else to do, and well, I don't think I want to let myself go right now, what with so many tests that I have to study for, I don't know if I can afford to sit and mourn.

Do tell me what's been happening with you too. Otherwise I'd feel I was talking too much about me and such. <33

Hahah, same!
I've been okay, love. A friend of mine, Bethany, from London, actually, passed away day before. The funeral was yesterday. I found it really weird, but her parents asked me to skype during the funeral saying that Beth would really like if I could be there, and I couldn't really say no. She had cancer. It hit me hard. Everyone expected it, she did too, but we never really were prepared nor did we want it to come to that, and when it did happen, it took the wind out of me. And she was an only child too. Her parents are really taking it hard. I am too. I keep thinking of all the little details and things she liked and disliked. I ended up listening to Christmas songs day before, in the evening, probably afternoon for you'll, because she loved Christmas, and weird stuff like that.
I used to skype with her a whole lot, especially after her chemo and stuff, when she was able enough. She'd ask me to sing to her, all her favorite songs because she didn't have the energy to. She'd hum along. I don't know. I almost laughed during the funeral. Apparently I don't cope very well with stress. But I guess I'm doing alright. Although I haven't really cried about her, and am still having a hard time accepting it.

How are you, sweetheart? How are things? <3 xx

Ahem! Hi
<3 <3 <3 <3
I've missed you. You know that? I've been dying without you!

yes i am a volunteer medic on call 24/7 so i have a great deal of respect for volunteers ,Many thank you for the welcome

Thank you

OOH YAY!

Okay! My pleasure. I can come round give you smoochies and take you out and give you the time of yo' life babyg.

What do ya say?

HOLLEH, I LOVE YOU.

Thank you lovely! I hope you're okay! <3

I haven't been online for a few days. And yep, we need a Skype date very soon!
Love you.