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Hey Dez! It has been a while. I just realized I never got back to your last VM and I kind of cannot make sense of the conversation at this point. I really hope you are doing well. Imy
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For some crazy reason, this morning, I kept thinking you had a period at the end of your username. I had to go back and remove several periods because I typed "Spoons." instead of "Spoons". Darn you Staff members and your frequent username changes!
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I like school, just miss my friends. I'm not sure what we are eating, I'll let you know when we do
What are you eating? It's great about the physical test and I hope they call you soon. Hugs -
Ooooh sounds nasty! Liquid stuff never seems to taste very nice....even when they try to make it taste nice/give it a flavour of sorts.
I also forgot about the spoon theory which would make sense about spoonism being the religion of the chronically ill
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- Dez
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- Hey all! My name is Dez, and I am a 27 year old who just graduated with my Masters in Public Health. So I basically just entered the "real world" and have to be an "adult." Ew.
On any given day if I'm not here you'll find me napping, sitting in therapy, or watching something on Netflix. I'm trying to do this thing called "finding a hobby," so feel free to pass along your favorite books and TV shows.
I have an interest in sexual health, especially contraceptives, the prevention of sexually transmitted infections as well as HPV and the vaccine in particular. I stand with Planned Parenthood and similar reproductive health organizations. I also have an interest in vaccines.
I'm still basically trying to figure everything out myself, but feel free to say hello. If I don't answer right away, rest assured that I will when I get a chance! :D
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I became a LiveHelp Operator on December 1, 2011. On January 29, 2012 I changed primaries to HelpLINK Mentor. On April 23, 2012 I became a Self Expression Forum Mod. On October 8, 2012 I became an LGBT+ Forum Mod. On December 1, 2012 I became a Chat Moderator. On February 9, 2013 I became a HelpLINK Moderator. On July 13, 2013 I became a member of the Performance Committee. On August 17 2013, I became an Albums Moderator as well as a member of the Articles Team. On October 13, 2013, I became a Self Harm Forum Mod. On November 16, 2013, I became a member of the Social Networking Team. On December 23, 2013, I became a Social Groups Moderator. On December 23, 2013, I also became a member of the Videos Team. On January 25, 2014, I became a Blogs Moderator. On April 12th, 2014, I became a Project Advisor. On August 31, 2014 I became a member of the newly formed Volunteering Committee. On March 27, 2015 I became a Newsletter Editor. On August 1, 2015 I became part of the Disputes Committee. On August 17, 2015 I became a Forums and Community Officer. On April 30, 2022 I became a Community Team Leader.
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Last updated 11/19/23
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- I'm here, I'm Queer
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- Master’s in Public Health
- Occupation
- Unemployed
- Politics
- Democrat.
- Religion
- Atheist
- Zodiac sign
- Gemini
- Interests
- Hobbies
- I don't know anymore.
- Music
- Oh, various things.
- Movies
- The Day After Tomorrow, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Horton Hears a Who, Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, Finding Dory... I don't watch many movies.
- Television
- House M.D., In Plain Sight, Nurse Jackie, Rizzoli & Isles, Hell's Kitchen, Once Upon A Time, Necessary Roughness, Chicago Fire, Justice League, Scrubs, Rick and Morty, Bojack Horseman, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, The Good Doctor, The Good Place, The Resident, 9-1-1
- Games
- Portal, Portal 2, The Sims 3 and 4, Plague, Rocket League, Golf With Your Friends, Magicka, then your classic board games.
- Books
- Anything that's by Jodi Picoult or talks about real life issues or Ellen Hopkins. Fiction books that talk about real world issues, like self harm.
- Sports
- I don't like sports.
- Heroes
- My Pepere (grandfather) and my cousin Sophia, as well as her two older sisters Alex and Gabby and their mother, Kristy. Also my niece Madison. :)
- Favorite quotes
- The world is round, so the place that may seem like the end, may also be only the beginning.
- Other interests
- Being a mermaid.
Sleeping.
Eating my sister's food.
Zumba.
Sloths.
Guinea pigs.
Sexual health and reproductive rights
Vaccines
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Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
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I did a risk assessment with one of my group therapy clinicians the other day and it told us that I was high risk for suicide. I already knew that was going to be a thing. My mental health has been bad lately. The clinician let the crisis team know and they called me, but I was able to convince them I was fine.
I was supposed to go for a medical test on the sixth. They had me go off of my reflux medication to do it, and then the day before the test they called and said they made a...
I was supposed to go for a medical test on the sixth. They had me go off of my reflux medication to do it, and then the day before the test they called and said they made a...
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My mixed episode turned into a severe depressive episode, also with a lot of anxiety.
I haven't showered in a week. I am going to tomorrow only because I have an MRI and I don't want them to get upset with me for being dirty. If not I'd probably push it off even longer. I can go to the gym just fine but showering is a nightmare and I don't know why. I never have issues showering when I'm depressed.
I've been self harming regularly, almost daily. It's nothing severe...
I haven't showered in a week. I am going to tomorrow only because I have an MRI and I don't want them to get upset with me for being dirty. If not I'd probably push it off even longer. I can go to the gym just fine but showering is a nightmare and I don't know why. I never have issues showering when I'm depressed.
I've been self harming regularly, almost daily. It's nothing severe...
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As the title says, if this keeps up, I will end up back in the hospital.
My mood has been getting worse lately, especially in the month of June. I had a lot of ups and downs despite being on a ton of medications. I have been irritable and snapping at my parents for stupid things like the fact that my Dunkin order was wrong. I also had impulsive spending to the point that I had $6.14 left in my bank account by the end of the month. I have also been self harming and my suicidal thoughts...
My mood has been getting worse lately, especially in the month of June. I had a lot of ups and downs despite being on a ton of medications. I have been irritable and snapping at my parents for stupid things like the fact that my Dunkin order was wrong. I also had impulsive spending to the point that I had $6.14 left in my bank account by the end of the month. I have also been self harming and my suicidal thoughts...
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I followed a journal prompt asking you to write a letter to your future self. I decided to write a letter to me five years from now. I kind of like how it came out so I am posting it here too. Here goes:
Dear Me 5 Years From Now,
I honestly didn't expect that you would live this long, so congratulations I guess. I hope you don't have any permanent damage from any more suicide attempts that happened between 4/12/24 and now. Maybe you're finally not feeling as suicidal...
Dear Me 5 Years From Now,
I honestly didn't expect that you would live this long, so congratulations I guess. I hope you don't have any permanent damage from any more suicide attempts that happened between 4/12/24 and now. Maybe you're finally not feeling as suicidal...
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I started writing this and then something happened and it deleted itself, so I guess I'll try to remember what I was going to say.
I was doing relatively well for a few weeks. I really was. I hadn't been self harming and had generally been feeling okay. But then it crashed again and the depression and anxiety are back with a vengeance.
This weekend I was very depressed. I spent a lot of Saturday isolating by myself and was in bed a lot. I went to bed around 7:30, 8:00...
I was doing relatively well for a few weeks. I really was. I hadn't been self harming and had generally been feeling okay. But then it crashed again and the depression and anxiety are back with a vengeance.
This weekend I was very depressed. I spent a lot of Saturday isolating by myself and was in bed a lot. I went to bed around 7:30, 8:00...
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