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Well, im really glad!

You can always check yourself into a hospital. or tell your mom you dont want to live. Listen, i did that. I told my mom I didnt want to live. She yelled at me, but she brought me to the hospital. And they put me on meds, and I was doing very well for a long while. but then i stopped taking the meds. and im ehh. Alright. But I know it helped a lot! so if you feel like ending it. go there. please.

Im so sorry you feel that way. no one deserves to hurt that much. NO ONE. And i am sad to say, i know how you feel. I know that feeling when you just want it to all end, everything. All the pain, the misery, the hate, the love, the sadness, everything. And you know you can. You think "oh, this would be so easy!" But something is making you stay. Part of you doesnt want to go. You want to be here. You will stay here, because otherwise you wouldn't be on here, you wouldn't be talking to me. And i promise you, thats a good thing.

Life may not be how you expected it-- let alone wanted it to be. But it is. And sometimes, you just have to move on. I know its hell right now. You may feel you can't hold on one more day, you have so much pain. You hold it in your heart, your eyes, your stomach, you even wear it on your skin. But life goes on. And you will move forward. Maybe not today, tomorrow, or even the next but some day. Some day you will move on, and you will have the life you always wanted.

You wont feel the pain you are feeling now-- relief will just work its way into your life. You deserve to feel happy. You deserve to live and breath. If you can't do it for yourself, do it in memory of your friend. Because again, I know he would want you to move on. And its hell. But you will make it. And the second you do, you will know. You will KNOW that you made it. Soon, you wont feel the pain, or sorrow, it will just be faint memories.

Maybe one day, the pain will come back, but it will soon move onto its next victim. You just can't let it take control over you. You can't, cause if you let it. It wins. Pain wins. Depression wins. It will have taken over every part of you. It will have taken your life.

Aw love, you will get through this. You really are important. and it was NOT your fault! Sometimes people do things. You never handed him the pills/gave him a rope/ pushed him in front of a train/etc. Of course you are going to feel bad, but you will get through it. You just have to feel. Go through the emotions, but don't do something based on your feelings now. Because he would want you to go on. He really would. I know it.

Java is terrible. Anyways, i know how you feel. I really do, but i care. And im always here if you want to talk. But dont take your own life, so many people would be lost without you. Just like you are, without your friend. I care about you.

I never got the chance to say ,
im so sorry. Thats terrible. I really hope things get better though.

I think that you'll find a lot of people on this site including myself who want nothing more than you to live.

In fact, I'll give ya a link of all the ways you can get support. Here

You've come to a great site to get support then!

I saw that you were in the Chat Room and just joined today so I decided to stop by and say welcome! Finding everything all right?