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Yeah, I'm fine

Yeah, I remember

Haha, like I've said, I call so many people kiddo... my 17-year-old ex I call kiddo Don't take it as an age thing, take it as a friend thing. Usually, I would just call you Jason (and I can go back to Jason if you want), but any of my guyfriends really, I call kiddo you're like, one of the only ones on TH that I call this. Like... only one other guy on here. And a couple girls that I call darlin'

You do? Hm... I don't get confused very often about things. Unless we're talking about science, UGH, so damn... dtyuiouildiwqwoiefvc

I don't feel like I'm reading from a script, but sometimes I think about what to say or do next as if I'm writing a script. I think that's how my life got so dramatic. Besides... you know, the drama. People always say I'm poetic and I'm always so out of it, but really, I'm just... me. From a different perspective.... that probably made no sense but I'm not gonna go back and rewrite it

I'm going for... well first of all I gotta make this face a lot I'm not "going" for any of them really, though I wish I were all three. I think I'm too awkward to be sexy by the way I'm just going for... Enough. Acceptable, likable, able to remember... enough.

Yeah, I do. I like it better because I can sleep more with my medication and I can finish high school really quickly.

Are you sure?

I'm alright, thanks

That's cool Yeah, I have to be with my bone condition now.

Hey How are you?

Haha, you know the funny thing is, you and I are the same age, I couldn't really look down to you now could I? And even if you were younger, I still wouldn't I admire you and respect you, no matter what age or religion or whatever. You could be... a muppet. An 80-year-old hindu Muppet, and I would respect that ....though I don't know why a Muppet would be here on TH As for the confusion... I talk so much about so many different people that people by now already probably think I'm a bit of a slut or my friends have more than one name

Same with me, the lying awake thing. Its... a weird topic, being awake or asleep. Sometimes I wonder which is better for me. Its... yeah. Complications ...my friends all wake up at like 1 in the afternoon, so I have to wait for them. Fun stuff

...thanks dude honestly, it kind of makes my night to hear that. I, of course, have never believed it, and might never will, but... thanks...yeah.... thanks

I can't at the moment with people around, but I will later. I might write a blog. How about you?

...you were scared to say hello to me? why? hm... I'm glad you did too

Oooohhhhh, haha, I see. Well, sometimes, we all get confused. Its hard, trying to believe in things when the world around you believes in so many other things. You know? Its funny... one religion believes another is wrong, and that religion believes another is wrong, and THAT religion believes another is wrong... its just a matter if finding what is right to YOU.
...besides. You're young, and its not as huge of a life impact as you think. you're entitled to your own thoughts and beliefs and time to think and believe them

I have never confused you? I thought I confuse everyone

My nightmares... geez. They're... detailed. They seem real, sometimes they seem like movies. Like, a lot of the time, I'm not viewing it as myself, but as if I'm in another person's body. Like a bystander, or like I'm watching on a screen. They like to involve The End, and flames, and lots of blood.. and my friend Matthew is in so many of them... there's sometimes children in them... and a lot of the color black. Mirrors, rape, cutting, flames, childhood memories, music boxes, bridges... I wake up feeling like I'm underwater, I can't breathe, sometimes I can't even scream because I'm too horrified. Its... I'm so exhausted but the worst part is, I'm so used to feeling exhausted that its part of my system now....

You really think so? ...I sometimes wanna be a model and then I remember how like, impossible that has been made for me. But its always just fun to pretend... and of course I have to edit them. Just to make them look better... but, you know. I can't ever look at them and think "I nailed it", or "I am enough here"... its weird :/

So it's a win win situation! Actually, no, I drive at a decent speed ::