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after my cousin's wedding I went to on wednesday, I told myself I'm never going to any of their events again. Then I won't answer calls either, and things like that. One of my sisters did that already. They might be more pushy on me, because they think I'm weak. But after wednesday, I'm pretty much done with them. I need to free myself after 14 years of torment. Yeah, since I moved to the US they were like that, and then in school, constant bullying. -.- teachers aren't any better. They're all racist and prejudice to anyone who is different, not everyone everyone but most of them and I know them enough to tell.

You mean relationships people are having with each other, friendship relationships or do you mean your relationships with others?

It may depend on what you say or how you act. The chances are people will notice you, just that you think they don't and you feel you're invisible to others. You are who you are. If you met someone who was interested in chemistry or biology, or even a general interest, someone will enjoy talking about it, maybe not at school but if there was a specific group meant for it then you'll have a better chance.

In class when standing on front of the class, I think it's natural that we're seen as invisible because the thing is, it's a classroom and although people are there to learn and such, a lot of people tend to think about what lessons they have next, what homework needs to be done or how they want to go home. I know I've done it when other people speak in front of the class. I hated presentations not because I had to speak in front of the class but because I'd always find them to be uninteresting because I find it hard to sit and listen to someone talking, it's not necessarily that I hold a problem against the person speaking in front of the class, it's just I have a hard time sitting still for so long. It might not make other people feel good, like you with the people in your class but the chances are, they don't see you in the way that you think they do.

thank you *hug*
it's just that I'm always the outcast on both sides of my family. And as much as they think they know who I am, they never will. They show obvious preferential treatment to my sisters, because they tend to pick at people who lack confidence. My 3 sisters all learned ways to make it at least appear that they have confidence, I just never do that. I'm quiet when they insult me, and they can tell it hurts me so they continue. If I acted like I didn't care they'd probably stop.

I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. I understand Lexi rejecting a special bracelet you were going to give her because she's already with someone though maybe you could ask if she'd like it as a friend? If not, save it until you meet someone who's single and you get to know them better, then go from there.

I think underneath you really want a relationship with someone but because you're really wanting to try, it's not going so well. Take your time, you have a lot of it and try not to try too hard in wanting to be in a relationship with someone. There's a part where if we try too hard, it doesn't go as well as we'd hope but if we just let things flow and allow people to come to us and we come to them, naturally you'll end up meeting someone and you may hit things of really well.

If you are still wanting a relationship with someone maybe there's a special group you could go to where people share the same hobbies and interests as you. At least from there you'll meet someone new and make some friends because you'll each have something in common and have similar interests.

I know that compass was your property but usually when people take things from us, they do tend to taunt us because they like to watch us try and get it back, don't give into Brittany by trying to get back what she stole, pick your moments and wait for her to drop her guard, when she isn't expecting you to take back your property, that's when you'll have a greater chance in actually getting your things back, you'll also get the last laugh because you're effectively taunting her by not giving her the enjoyment she wanted and from that it'll make you feel really good about yourself.

I do it with myself. I work through my upsets one by one and think ways of how I can solve them and their priority.

Whichever one you feel is the most important first.

aww <3 I got stung by a bee once but I still like them. They're really friendly especially if you wear a flowery dress in the summer...

the thing with me is I could barely recall the insults, it's happened over the course of several years. But sometimes it's not even the insults but it's the feelings I get, the vibes and their attitudes. Those are hard to describe.
I'll list a few here
you can't communicate
you're so shy (they meant it as a bad thing)
there's something wrong with you
you don't know how to do anything
stop pretending you're at a dentist (when I was smiling and my teeth was showing)
too bad your shoes don't match with your dress
do you have a boyfriend yet
you make your grandma cry at night
this family loves you, but if you don't want to involve yourself then we won't run after you
then there's also the accusations, and the voice tones and everything else that I just don't know how to describe but I know very well is there.
they call my sisters and me "the girls" it's so annoying, considering my oldest sister is 24
they treat us like babies, like we can't take care of ourselves
constantly yelling at me
it was my cousin's wedding so I had to see them. Torturous family event. My dad wasn't invited and my mom isn't here. I always feel like I'm a burden because even growing up, we would have to visit them without parents, which meant each of my relatives had to take care of us, they made it seem like a burden, never treated us as real family.
My cousins I grew up with barely talk to us, and the ones who are younger have no clue we're cousins. Their parents don't tell them. It's ridiculous because the triplets are six years old and we bonded during the few times we saw each other, even more than the cousins they see regularly. They wanted to invite me to their home to hang out, since at the wedding, we were separated men and women -.-

Name one of the times you've felt upset over and we can work through them one by one if you like.

TIred. How are you?

Aww what's making you feel upset lately?