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This song is literally the story of my life...
I watched rebel without a cause for the first time about 2 days ago, and watched it again the next day. Not only because its a brilliant movie, but because I identify with all 3 of them...

Time to make another whiny blog post

1) After about 10 weeks, I relapsed. I've had enough of everything.

2) I have a huge exam tomorrow, and I have spent the entire weekend playing video games. I've got literally no self discipline.

3) As much as I don't want to admit it, my dad had this work colleague at our house for the night because he's over from another country. And I really like him. He's a lot younger than my dad, late 20s ish. It's annoying...

It's kinda depressing that the only reason I didn't relapse on my 17th birthday is that i couldn't find anything to cut with.
My friends bought me a cake, which was a nice gesture until in the centre of attention while I'm eating. I can hardly say I don't want any when it was bought for me

Anyway im really tired so gnight

I know it sounds stupid, but half the time when I eat I just want to throw up. Sometimes after eating anything I want for nothing more than for my stomach to be empty. But I cant bring myself to actually do it. I'm worried if I can do it once, it will be so much easier the second time.

I have this "friend". He attention-seeks more than anyone I know and it annoys EVERYONE. E.g. I make a joke about having too much caffiene. The weekend after I discovered proplus, he comes in saying he ate and entire pack of caffiene pills and collapsed. I know this isn't true because a) his mum and mine tell each other literally everything; if anything happens to my parents I will go to his in their will and b) today I took twice the recommended dosage and he told me how bad that is,...