Try not to tell yourself that there's something getting in the way as you can honestly do anything if you fight through it. If you're worried about digging up bad memories or something, bite your lip as it'll only be temporary and the positive effects will be forever. But yeah, bullying really is pathetic on the side of the bullies; it makes such nice people as yourself feel awful just because the bullies have issues. Try just bringing yourself to the point where you're willing to think "you know, I really don't give a fuck about what you think or do, you don't matter to me" and let yourself disregard it and know that you're too good to have to go through that.

No need to be sorry. It's not your fault. I've been dealing with this bullying for years, and I was just tired of dealing with it. I never did anything wrong to the people who bullied me. I was just a nice quiet girl who is nice to everyone. I didn't deserve to get bullied at all. I just want to get help with my depression and suicidal problems, but I think something is getting in the way of me getting help

Aw, I'm so sorry! I mean I know there's always been bullying and will always be bullying but it's always so much more impacting to hear about when it's happening to a kewl person.
Luckily though this confirms my thought that it was just their immaturity and insecurities and that it's not your fault at all
Just try to remember that there are always good people in the world to counter the bad ones. Whereas the bad ones act during school by preying on the good ones, the good ones act on sites like this to help

They use to call me really bad names, make fun of me, no one really liked me, and people would fight me over stupid reason. I'm upset about the things that happened to me

What all did they do? Honestly chances are it's just due to their own insecurities and I'm sure college kids will be more mature than that.
And what about your life are you upset about?

I'm just upset with my life and the way people use to treat me in public school

Aw, I can't have that, talk to me. What's wrong?

I'm not really sure. I'm just depressed and suicidal

I'll be fine, just something bugging me, haha.
Anything I can do to help?

Not really. How about you?