Well with the exception of you and a couple of other people who are way far away, your my only friends. I'm basically alone here, no body but my family notices me. So for the past month or so, I've been putting myself out there and getting out of my comfort zone to meet people, but it hasn't been working so well. I'm trying to get some weed from one of my
co-workers, I've been drinking again, the cutting isn't getting easier to stop. I'm still going to keep trying but today has been horrible, I've been crying on and off all day and my knuckles are all busted up. That falls under the grounds of a bad day and a hug
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But I'm still going to keep trying and moving forward but today, I decided to stop going forward and let myself hurt for a while. I sound like a little girl right now
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