Aw thankyou Emma, you're a true friend Im gonna have to wait until after my exams so that's a few more weeks.But then after that, i'll probably go. I see my therapist on Tuesday, don't know if i should tell her what ive decided :/
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Aww sorry that you are struggling so much, you don't desereve to have to go through that.
I am proud of you sweetie. If you think it will be best then you should go for it. It will be worth it if it helps you feel better <3 I am behind you 100% every step of the way and if you need anything i am here <3 xxx

No not really
Ive decided that if my meds don't work im gonna get admitted into hospital. I think it's the only option left right now. My therapist said im proving resistant to nearly all forms of therapy (well what ive had so far anyway) so i think that's what im gonna have to do. Personally i don't think im gonna last that long. Im feelin so suicidal at the moment and waitin for my meds to work is gonna take too long. I'd probably be dead by that time
How are you though luvi?
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You feeling any better today? <3 xxxx

Love you too..xxxxx

There is always a point you just have to find it and i know it is hard but you are strong, you can get through this :]
Love youuuu <3 xxx

Im so tired. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. what's the point?
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You do not deserve any of it! You are not stupid, i can promise you that :]
No don't give in to them sweetie, you are so much stronger than that. You don't need them. You have to fight, if not for yourself do it for me :] I know its hard i am so tired too and giving up seems so much easier but we have to fight. Things will get better <3
I love you lots and lots and lots <3 xxxx

I do deserve it. Every bit of it, it's all my fault. Stupid stupid me.
Nope nothing good at all.. im failing so miserably in school, ive totally distanced myself from my friends. I don't wanna know them. And everything else (at home especially) is just awful. To top it up my urges to cut and od are bad. I think im just gonna give in to them. No more fighting for me. No more fighting. Im too tired
Love you like i love my gawjus cat <3 xxxxx

You do NOT desservethis. You are amazing and you deserve every bit of happiness :]
It is not all your fault i can promise you that <3
There must be some thing good. Maybe you met someone like a new friend, you got agoodmark. Anything?
Love you lots like lollypops :P <3 xxxx