Thanks so much. I love coloring and I will try that. Art is actually one of the classes in school I actually like. Also thank you for being my friend on here. The cigarettes thing like I said I have been smoking since I was 12 years old. I know that is crazy. I don't even care about that very much. My mom and step dad both know I do it and let me do it. They both smoke too. They don't know I drink or at least drink so much. The one thing is I will never touch hard drugs. I will post this stuff in the proper sections and I plan on going back to a therapist probably once my moms deductible is met on her insurance.

I came up with my username because I feel like I am borderline functional but dysfunctional as well. If that makes a damn bit of sense at all. Thank You so much. I just have so many issues and I have seen a few therapists and it all stems from sexual abuse from when I was a child from my dad who eventually went to prison where he couldn't hack it and killed himself. Now I live with my mom and step dad and although I don't deal with any of that my step dad verbally abuses the hell out of me and my mom. I am always tense which is why I have been smoking cigarettes since I was 12 and now I feel my alcohol drinking is getting out of control. That is the main reason I am here. Also I feel I might be Anorexic. So I feel I can't go to my mom because she drinks a lot and I already get yelled at for school stuff all the time.

Hey, love your username by the way. I'm Alexis and I am sure you will see me in the forums asking for help. I am a pretty messed up teen. I will get into all that in my introduction thread later. Thanks for the welcome message.