Hey there,
I'm so sorry to hear this
I am glad I broke my break to view my notifications.
Mate, I know how you feel, I've been so hurt myself that I have no faith in humanity as a whole but I try my best to leave a positive impact on the world because, as a quote says, be the change YOU wanna SEE!
If you really think about it, there is no unselfish good deed, the actual definition of selfish is "doing something for another and feeling good about it, or doing it solely for themself".
When I try and help people, and receive a message back saying how much I helped them, yes, I feel good, but for them, knowing that I could have just helped them out of the rut even for a brief window of time. Or giving them a piece of advice they really take.
I try my best to just help people, and I love it. I cannot live without helping another. And I do see where you are coming from, really I do. But, I want to see this world become a bit brighter.
I suffer from PTSD, depression, self harm, relationships problems, an
ED, a few anxiety disorders, but I try and look passed it and usin the wisdom I collected, I try and help somebody who is struggling with what I go through daily.
The world can be a better place, but we must help this generation to know that there is something much better, that they don't have to cut, they don't have to restrict/binge/purge to feel good about themselves, they don't have to go through their days with a grim expression, that WE can BE the DIFFERENCE!
Jay.