I'm sorry it took me so long to reply to this, I'm sorry about everything, about your father and whatnot, I know what you mean by taking any hand, but I am here for you, so I'll expect anything, just so you know that I'm here for you
I've been a buddy since November, and its a very great thing. People usually reply to posts, but we're all here to be able to relate to you, so don't be afraid to talk to us
I'm okay on my part, I'm of course depressed as can be, but I'm.... surviving :/

I'm okay, I guess. yesterday, I was robbed of any pretense which probably made me resort to this forum. yesterday, I came face to face with the reality that my father no longer cares about us, but that I haven't really stopped caring about him. Today, my brother said he wanted my dad to just leave already and it really hurt me. I wrote that I wanted the same thing, but I guess I don't really want it. I also don't want to hear it said out loud. It makes everything too real. I have to keep living my life, smiling with my friends, and doing well in school, but my sanity is being stretched to its limits. I don't have the will power to keep all these facades. To most people we are a perfect family of four, not a dysfunctional broken mess and I almost want to just tell everyone the truth. Maybe someone else can knock some sense into my dad that our family has failed at. I think my dad really needs a doctor because his mood swings and anger are not normal. He's almost a like a psychopath. It's scary and heart braking. You probably weren't expecting this, but at this point I'm just going to grab any hand that comes my way before I fall into a deeper abyss.
I think it's really admirable that your a Buddy at the age of 15. I also appreciate this site. Even if nobody replies to a post, just knowing that my feelings have been expressed where someone might read them, makes me feel better.

So, how are you?