I think I know what you mean, but look at how far you've come, you're stronger than any urge or memory. You're only human, its okay to hurt. But to overcome it? That's when you prove how underestimated being a human can be
....if that didn't make any sense its probably because I'm out of it right now

that's nice
it's just like a scary place in my mind i'm hiding from

i have never believed i was going to hurt myself more than then

Well yeah... see someone always reminded me to take every minute one at a time, live each day as its own day because anything more than a day would probably overwhelm me. And it does, but you know. For example, I've made it a month and a week and 5 days without self harm. It feels like longer, but that's longer that I've resisted. Sure, longer that I've needed it, but the resistance can only make me somewhat stronger?
...I don't know yet. I hope so
Don't let it take the light behind your eyes

you didn't

thank you
i guess it's just been eating around inside my head but that's a nice perspective

...you're welcome... and hey. A week is long in my perspective. You've made it a couple days when you could've lost everything.... every minute is another lived and that's something to be proud of Jason.
....see that I didn't call you dude

well it was a week ago so i haven't come too far but thank you

I say dude a lot... dude kiddo and darlin' I always feel like calling everyone those....even people on TH, new users even! Being on Staff though, being a Buddy, we aren't supposed to use pet names or anything alike pet names in welcoming messages....I have to make sure I don't scare them away....
As long as I'm not scaring you away...

Oh, I hate memories like that. But remember how far you've come and hopefully you feel better than those times, and you've hopefully overcome them. I think I can relate, but don't forget what those times have made you in to... well, a stronger you anyways I guess I'm always talking about my problems, and not so much what you might be struggling with... so I say again, I'm always here for you kiddo

"mahhhhh" *leans away*

your saying dude a lot

it's just a memory where i literaly thought i was going crazy

Dude, everyone messes with my name, its hilarious and sometimes adorable *....poke*
Nah, I mean... things could be better. I have this horrible self-hate going on, and I had awful nightmares last night, and this week was supposed to be great with band camp and seeing some of my friends but it all turned to shit because this secret got out and... urg. And to top it all off school is coming up and I'm so nervous :/
Other than that... I'm fantastic

Aww, I'm sorry about the flashback. If you wanna talk about it, I'm here for you dude

I have fun messing with your name