No it's good it's just odd
there's a difference I understand science and math very well
it keeps me sane
and once again no I understood
well i'll never forget you and your more than enough
I liked the one where you looked girly and princessy

Haha, like I've said, I call so many people kiddo... my 17-year-old ex I call kiddo Don't take it as an age thing, take it as a friend thing. Usually, I would just call you Jason (and I can go back to Jason if you want), but any of my guyfriends really, I call kiddo you're like, one of the only ones on TH that I call this. Like... only one other guy on here. And a couple girls that I call darlin'

You do? Hm... I don't get confused very often about things. Unless we're talking about science, UGH, so damn... dtyuiouildiwqwoiefvc

I don't feel like I'm reading from a script, but sometimes I think about what to say or do next as if I'm writing a script. I think that's how my life got so dramatic. Besides... you know, the drama. People always say I'm poetic and I'm always so out of it, but really, I'm just... me. From a different perspective.... that probably made no sense but I'm not gonna go back and rewrite it

I'm going for... well first of all I gotta make this face a lot I'm not "going" for any of them really, though I wish I were all three. I think I'm too awkward to be sexy by the way I'm just going for... Enough. Acceptable, likable, able to remember... enough.

Even if I was an 80yr old hindu muppet you'd still call me kiddo

Yeah I sometimes get what i'm going to do, what i'm doing, and what i've done confused
I fantasize and plan too much it becomes reality

yeah sometimes something'll happen and my first thought is to rewind cause I missed it and sometimes I feel like I'm reading from a script and I know what's gonna happen or what should happen

well what are you going for? Hot, sexy or beautiful

Haha, you know the funny thing is, you and I are the same age, I couldn't really look down to you now could I? And even if you were younger, I still wouldn't I admire you and respect you, no matter what age or religion or whatever. You could be... a muppet. An 80-year-old hindu Muppet, and I would respect that ....though I don't know why a Muppet would be here on TH As for the confusion... I talk so much about so many different people that people by now already probably think I'm a bit of a slut or my friends have more than one name

Same with me, the lying awake thing. Its... a weird topic, being awake or asleep. Sometimes I wonder which is better for me. Its... yeah. Complications ...my friends all wake up at like 1 in the afternoon, so I have to wait for them. Fun stuff

...thanks dude honestly, it kind of makes my night to hear that. I, of course, have never believed it, and might never will, but... thanks...yeah.... thanks

I'm a shy person
sometimes I feel like you look down to me, not in an superiortity way but in an age way
Nope never have not once, you'll post "sorry if this was confusing" and I think "what part of that was confusing"

I feel that way while i'm awake sometimes
Yeah that was the only thing stopping you from looking perfect in your pictures you seemed exhausted

Well you've got a good body and a cute face so
well I do so you can have that

...you were scared to say hello to me? why? hm... I'm glad you did too

Oooohhhhh, haha, I see. Well, sometimes, we all get confused. Its hard, trying to believe in things when the world around you believes in so many other things. You know? Its funny... one religion believes another is wrong, and that religion believes another is wrong, and THAT religion believes another is wrong... its just a matter if finding what is right to YOU.
...besides. You're young, and its not as huge of a life impact as you think. you're entitled to your own thoughts and beliefs and time to think and believe them

I have never confused you? I thought I confuse everyone

My nightmares... geez. They're... detailed. They seem real, sometimes they seem like movies. Like, a lot of the time, I'm not viewing it as myself, but as if I'm in another person's body. Like a bystander, or like I'm watching on a screen. They like to involve The End, and flames, and lots of blood.. and my friend Matthew is in so many of them... there's sometimes children in them... and a lot of the color black. Mirrors, rape, cutting, flames, childhood memories, music boxes, bridges... I wake up feeling like I'm underwater, I can't breathe, sometimes I can't even scream because I'm too horrified. Its... I'm so exhausted but the worst part is, I'm so used to feeling exhausted that its part of my system now....

You really think so? ...I sometimes wanna be a model and then I remember how like, impossible that has been made for me. But its always just fun to pretend... and of course I have to edit them. Just to make them look better... but, you know. I can't ever look at them and think "I nailed it", or "I am enough here"... its weird :/

Yeah i'm glad I got over my fear and said hello to you one day

No I meant i'm confused about my beliefs
you have never managed to confuse me and I was seeing your posts when I first came to the site
What are your nightmares like if you don't mind me asking

Well I think you look good and i'm right

well certainly you should be doing your homework!!! just joking kidd-...sir

Okay, its alright that you're confused. I confuse people. Basically, I watched this movie about a suicidal woman who started the biblical apocalypse. That was the gist of it My nightmare... god they suck I just want them to end. I hate that I feel as though I can never sleep again ...and thank you... I don't know. My pictures are just... :/ Its never enough I guess...

No
i'm confused
I had a nightmare too, not as bad as yours
From your pictures I think you look beautiful

next thing you know you'll be ordering me around, babysitting me and making sure I do my homework

I could call you sir if it would make you feel older

Well, just to clear up the Bible part of that, I watched this movie about the apocalypse and the end of the world and judgement day... I'm not even sure if you're religious or not but I don't know, that movie always gets me thinking Um... the movie contained graphic images of self harm, which triggered me... a lot. I've been somewhat triggered all day, I woke up from yet another nightmare last night and wouldn't stop thinking and over-thinking about it... I look so gross and I'm not happy with anything in my life and I want it all to go away and I want to disappear. Its just... so confusing. So lost
I don't know.

I'm sort of bored too... *pats head*... little bro