Okay, so I read this last night and this morning. This really made me smile and right when I needed it.
I could not, for the life of me, find the words to follow up on this. xD Lets see..
You really have no idea how much this means to me. Just when I was feeling down, things kept popping up that would lift my spirits. Just when I thought it was over, these things didn't seem to cease and that makes me more confident. While I'm still happy, it's easier to say good things about myself and I'll do my best to take those things to heart. I know that I apparently mean a lot to you here and you mean so much to me. If staying the same keeps you as my friend, I don't want to change myself. I do believe that I have things that I need to change to help me, but I want to always be kind and helpful, as you say I am. I will not disappoint you.
The obstacles that are coming up are so difficult and this is where I need to rely more on myself to do things. My confidence is the problem and fixing it is the solution. The problems that I have with myself is not so much my looks anymore. It's more of how inexperienced I am and how much I feel like a kid, compared to some of the people around me. I want to be able to look at other guys and think, "I stand as much of a chance as they do.". I'm managing to do that more often.
I don't know where I would be now if it were not for you, Nicole.
I feel as though you've put up with a lot from me and it means a lot. I can't stress enough that I am here for literally anything you have to throw at me. Okay, maybe not physical objects, but it goes as far as venting or advice. xD Thank you, Nicole.