Oh, watching my friends rehearsals, went to her gig yesterday, um, having really long days and hardly going home but only for dinner and sleep :/

Jay.

I really hope you'll be ok. what have you been doing?

I have a doctors appointment on the 5th of next month so no I haven't told him yet. I think so, hope so, I don't know.

Jay.

I'm sorry to hear. Have told your doctors about that? But will you be ok in the long run?

Apparenty my kidney levels have stabilised but I still have severe pains and my -clears throat- urin is darker than it should and I have been drinking a load of water which annoys me...
I am pretty sure there was blood in my urin at some stage it was so dark :/

Jay.

Im SO glad to hear you are ok! I was really worried. Are they worried your kidneys won't be ok?
You don't plan on ever trying again do you? Again im glad you are ok. <3

I was hospitalised now suffering through the appointments and the wait to see if my kidneys hold or not. Other than that, gorgeous I'm fine could not be better, nor happier for that matter!

Jay.

I really, really hope you are safe! You can get through this. Love you too. Please be ok..

I'm sorry gorgeous. I really am for this, but good bye I can't take it, honestly, I wish I'd done it sooner. I'm sorry, I love you loads and don't want to hurt you but I'm going through with it

Jay.

I know it's hard to do I fight with this almost everyday. Im not very optimistic either.