I'm not dead. Thanks for the huge message by the way. <3

I am 14. I want to help. Don't throw me off, because this could haunt me forever.

Sorry about this, but now that I've talked to you, I want you to know that I truly care. I'm not some ditzy off-to-save-the-universe-with-the-power-of-love therapist. What I was saying earlier, I hope it didn't make you angry. I'm sorry if it did. But whether they care about you now or not dosn't matter. Someone taught you how to walk and talk and read and write. You are someone's baby, and someone gave a damn about your life. Someone cared, and it dosn't matter if you wanted them to or not. You have so much potential! (Yes, you do. I don't care if you don't think so.) You could find a topic you care about, you could go to a school you like, you could get a nice job, you could find someone who loves you, you could have children who call you 'mommy' and look up to you when they feel like crying, you could live a long and happy life, and you're going to throw all that away because you're going through some hard times right now. There are people who are dying, and getting sick, and drinking dirty water, and there's not a goddamn thing they can do about it. You have an option. You have a million options! There are children and babies dying in haiti because there are THEIR PARENTS DEAD BODIES ARE CONTAMINATING THEIR DRINKING WATER! Think about you siblings! What do you want them to say abot you when you're gone? My sister ditched me? My sister gave up? My sister didn't care enough about me to stick around and help? Maybe they'll kill themselves too when they're older, because guilt-ridden mommy and daddy went into a downward spiral after sister left. Maybe they won't even remember you at all. All they'll have is anger towards a dead stranger for abandoning them. We arn't talking about just your life. Your life is yours to deal with, but you have no right to screw with other peoples'. You are a good person, and there is no such thing as a bad person. I honestly don't give a shit about what happened to you before now, because nobody can change the past. You're living the past right now. Predict the outcome of your actions, and manipulate it to create the result you want. Everything you do is changing the world. II don't know where you are, but I'm in canada. CANADA! And you've moved me to the point of writing pages and pages of reasons for you to stay alive! You say you don't want to make a differance? You say you arn't capable of making a differance? Well, guess what? If I hadn't found you, I'd be sitting on the floor right now in a puddle of self-pity because my stepmom hates me, my papa can't be with me, my parents are arguing and getting divorced, my brother told me not to come back the next time my dad kicks me out, and I have horns growing from my skull. Ew, huh? They move much more, and I lose the nerve endings in my jaw. I haven't seen my baby sister in five months, and I just got an email saying that she's learning how to talk. You have made a differance. To everyone you come in contact with, you are making a differance. If you ignore my pleas? If you go out and kill yourself tonight? You're parents will be heartbroken and guilty forever. Your siblings won't have a sister. Your friends will be in the councillor's office for months, and they will cry every time. I will be in therapy, because I tried to save a life, and failed. I will never get over the feeling that I should have tried harder, that I let you down. You will affect everybody. All over. There will be a massive hole in the hearts of everyone you've ever talked to, and no amount of time can fill it compleatly. If you die? I will never get over it. A person I never had the chance to meet will be gone forever. I'm not asking you to listen, just to think. Please.