Im trying to make it through. Im leaving next week to spend the three weeks with my biolgical dad and his kids(which I am so glad 2 have accepted me. One is to young to understand. The other hates me.) But its finally a family. For me.

But here where I am, I have been wanting to be gone since 5th grade. There is a flight scheduled to take me back. But I dont know if I'll have the courage to get on it, because I know I don't wanna live here. I made a vow when I was in 6th grade that if I ever went out of state I would never come back to this state(CA). Let's see.....there's
sh*t going on with my 4yr ex. He keeps telling everyone(EVERYONE) that I keep saying I want him back, I need him, I'll do suicide without him. What he doesn't know(or anybody else) is that I am having an affair with his bestfriend("brother"). I think thats a little of it. Lol. How are you? Don't feel bad

I wuv yuu^-^ and unlike some people, I mean it. Your like an online addition to family<3