I know and i wasnt trying to make him feel bad, just basically trying to tell him without saying it to value his time with her, u kno what i mean?
But ugh its all so difficult...

Oh dear I can see why he got upset but it wasn't your fault and you don't need to cut yourself hun. He is probably just still upset his grandma is in hospital and thats why he wont talk to you, give him some time, he will probably come round in the end!

OK .

Well, I told him he was lucky... sounds ok right? well, i never got a chance to say goodbye to my grandma, and he has the chance, cause his is in the hospital, and well, he took it completely the wrong way and he is mad at me and wont talk to me and tht was like a week ago ... so i keep wanting to cut cause he well i pretty much love him and its really confusing and he knows i like him too and the whole thing is a huge mess...

Im sure, if you want to tell it. If you would rather you can PM it to me or you can post it here I dont mind

=( it will, it just takes time.... lol.

Eh, long story... u sure u want to hear it?

Well, since it has been a year and a half and hasn't eased up yet Im guessing it will still be a while! Im glad its getting a little easier, whats happening with your friend? I currently have no friends haha

=( I know that feeling. It sucks, but it does ease up .... after a while lol.

eh, still having some problems with my friend and wanting to cut every day... but its getting a little easier ... i think ... lol

"somewhat"? That doesnt sound too good? Im not so great I suppose, I keep thinking up new and better ways of hurting myself which is stupid of me

I'm doing somewhat better now thanks

How have you been?

Hey, How are you? I read your thread in SH and wanted to check your OK