Thank you... it seems like you're the only person that actually seems to care :/

Godverdomme!
If you dated with Connor, I'd personally be very happy for you, unlike those two exes that just want you, not your happiness, unless it's with them, of course. Me on the other hand, I only care if you're happy in this sense. Just try it with Connor, you'll never know if you don't try.

If it does succeed, then tell me, I'll be happy to hear it

I'm not... at all. I fucking cut last night and I didn't mean to but I couldn't take it. Everyone is trying to protect me from the one guy I want to date right now. And they keep telling me that he will hurt me and I won't be able to love him, but the only thing I need protecting from is MYSELF.
....Jack was trying to pursuade me into not going out with him.
...Cody has been practically harassing me about it. Telling me that he won't let me date him and he will never talk to me again if I do and Cody's the only guy that will ever love me, and that I'm too fucked up for anyone... he brought Matthew into it and said that matthew would be so crushed if I went out with Connor but... but Matthew doesn't care about me. At all. I can't even text him without crying and panicking.
I just.... I see things. They don't want me to be happy, or healthy, they want me alone and vulnerable and I can't tell anyone why... you're basically the only person that knows what I did last night....
I just feel lost.

Are you sure you're alright? Looks like you aren't

...alright :/

Hey Tay, how is it going?

Okay, I'm just playing PS3

yeah, Cody Oh cool, that's good I'm on TeenHelp, I'm listening to The Pretty Reckless, I'm waiting for an e-mail from this guy (I get extremely anxious... for some reason ) and... well yesterday my family had our family holiday that we've been doing for as long as I can remember, twice a year, once for cherry picking and once for raspberry picking, we did cherries yesterday. It was only 4 of us this year, it used to be about 15 or so for each but now we can only get a few to do it ever since my cousin ran away/died... and I think we're doing raspberries... geez I don't even know when O.o and so I have a bucket of cherries to eat

Ah, Cody, or not?

I'm just okay, I have a week off (YEY!) So what's up?

Well, I mean last night sucked, I was up until midnight fighting with my ex... now I'm alright though, eating a ton of cherries and missing him and listening to a TON of music I'm alright