Sorry for the late reply, darling, I've been so preoccupied, I haven't had time to come on!
I understand what you mean by that. I used to feel like that a whole lot, and realize how hard it must be for you, and you are so very strong for dealing with it, and living with such pain, and honestly, it inspires me to look beyond just words and sadness.
You should know that anything, absolutely anything can be overcome. Just set your mind to it, and put your whole heart into it. It took me only too long to realize that. And I don't want you to go through all the pain, only to figure out what I did.
And, no, that wasn't me. lol. Thank you, that means ever so much to me! <3