Thank you very much! Everyone has been very supportive here... Sometimes I still have suicidal thoughts or when it gets too much I want to cut myself again but then I start writing all my feelings in a journal and it seems that it helps to distract myself. I am trying to find another way to improve my life but I don't know how strong can I be to keep going with all of the problems in my life. Anyways, I will keep coming and writing those things have helped me

I saw your thread in the SH section and I want ya to know that it'll be okay. You can rant to me if there's anything.