thanks for understanding
it only people were more supportive I wouldn't feel this awful, but they don't know about all the issues I have to cope with at the moment just because I tried to get better when it was too late. I'm so sad that I feel nothing is worth it, I have no future, and I don't know how they want me to react, this is the only way out I know
It'll end someday, but you need to show courage and be strong, don't take so hard what people may say about you, you're doing what you can at the moment, and that's enough, you have time to improve, think about you saying someday 'I could beat it', how proud you'd feel, how fine you'll be, healthy again
no more weakness, diziness, fear and such. I know how hard it is, keep trusting in yourself, you're stronger than
ed