Welcome to TeenHelp, Eric. My name's Alex. Upon reading through your one and only post, words cannot describe what you must be going through. I hope that this site brings a positive influence into your life and that you get the help that you need and deserve. Feel free to introduce yourself here if you'd like so others might get to know you. We're a pretty friendly group of people with varying experiences. I hope you find what you're looking for and that you enjoy your time here.