that's why we need code word
it makes it easier
I promise, and this is very hard for me, but if i ever feel like i will hurt myself i will hold off long enough to ask you for help

That's alright. I get scared too. Yesterday I lied to my mom about self harm... again. I'm terrified to ask for help. It's alright.

i know ,i know
i don't know why i get scared when it comes to asking for help and talking about my problems

You never seem annoying or attention seeking to me.
I'm never to busy for you, you won't trigger me (I promise), and I don't care how big or small your problem seems. Especially if you're considering suicide, that's huge and I want to help you.

that's how i feel too
attention seeking and annoying

if i was feeling that bad
my thought process going through my head while in my bath tub(so if i failed i could clean it up easier) holding my swiss army knife(it has a really sharp blade) would be
"should i talk to cookie and cassie"
"No they're probably busy'
"i'd just trigger them and i don't want that'
"plus their problems are bigger than mine"

Oh, I've gotten drug urges too. Well, then the code word is definitely a good idea. Sometimes it can be difficult to say something is wrong. I'm always afraid that I'll seem attention seeking or something. Well, I hope you would say something. And I hope that if you did I could be there to support you and help you get through just like you did for me.
Oh, Cassie's laptop died and it says she's on because of her kindle

We didn't she hasn't responded yet she's probably doing something

I would never mind you asking questions like that
i trust you with my feelings and emotions

i haven't but i was feeling a little bad and that led to how i've considered doing drugs and she said i could always talk to her which i know and i said i probably wouldn't say anything to either of you if i was going to kill myself

I'm glad to hear that
Thanks, that can be helpful. So, did you decide on one?
Oh, have you been suicidal lately? if you don't mind me asking.

i'm doing better

the codeword extends to you too
we only need it cause we don't know how to ask for help and i said i'd die in silence

Hahahah!
Fire sounds like a good one too
I'm alright, thanks. How are you?