It's been somewhat okay and somewhat crappy. my ocd has been through the roof with intrusive thoughts that are so scary i didn't want to blog about it for fear of being judged. am really sore from all the exercise i've been doing. char is away yesterday and half of today so i only got to talk to her for a couple of minutes this weekend, and then you have been busy hurting yourself while drunk on trampolines is it? so i've been a tad lonely but thats mah own fault for not having real life friends. and you?

Hey, sorry i havent replied//I havent been on the last few days because i was very drunk and then very hungover and then very tired :| hows it goin? <3 xxx

how's it going hun?

yes, of course. i'll meet you in chat.

hun can we talk? xx im really sorry, if you dont feel up to it then please say idk sorry <3 xxwrega

I don't know how i am really. I've been swinging wildly back and forth between being hopeful and upbeat and planning in detail how i will kill myself. A half hour ago i was planning out my death after a fight with my mom, and now my lovely girlfriend is giving me butterflies and making me smile.

I've been doing a lot of work on my trauma , so thats been bringing up a lot of emotions. Also i've been trying to make some major lifestyle changes like rejoining weight watchers and exercising more. and the looming issue of whether or not i will return to school has been stressing me out majorly.

My gf just had to get offline, and i can already feel myself starting to crash. i feel like i'm going to cry. ugh.

Hey <3

are you ok? xxxx

hey hun,
how are you? (And don't tell me you're fine if you're not.)

Megan

thanks ily xxxx

if you ever want to talk , (including right now) let me know. you're not alone.