ive become so used to it tht when i dont do it or even have the urge to do it,i feel like i should be wanting to do it and i feel strange.

I agree haha ;P
That's great! (:You should be proud
And I know what not being able to stop cutting is like..just keep trying

thts good best friends are the best!
im doing better my therapist says he sees improvement in me and i feel like i have more energy, i actually WANT to do things now. its a long process tho :/ and im still cutting myself and thts hard

I don't feel ashamed, lol they help..I can already feel a little difference
I think the only time I actually laugh genuinely is when I'm with my best friend haha
Hopefully I see her soon
So how are you? (:

awhh! thts great to hear! i have found tht laughing is the best medicine tho, i always feel better after watching a funny movie. sometimes we all need a little help and taking medicine for it is nothing you should ever feel ashamed for.

Very true, I'm here though if you ever need someone to talk to (:
And I've been alright I guess. I went to the doctors finally and got prescribed for anti depressants/anxiety medication and something for acid reflex (stomach problems). Hopefully they help!

yeah i suppose your right, some people just cant handle it. thank you. how about you? how have you been lately?

That sucks ):
Some people just don't know how to deal with depression or when someone has it
I hope everything works out!

my friends dont want to hear it i think. they say my depression is spreading onto them, which makes me sad because thts not what i want and i always tried to act happy around them. yeah im actually seeing a Psycharist for all the stuff thts going wrong with me, but its only once a week and i havnt seen him in 2 weeks because of memorial weekend.at first i thought it was panic attacks but he said it was anxiety attacks. i only saw him once so hopefully it will work or else idk what im going to do :c

I know what you mean about not wanting to stop cutting. Its hard to. Especially when you get in the state of mind where you don't think its a problem or harmful.
I'm in the same boat as you pretty much, my friends don't understand what I'm going through either so I don't tell them anything about it.
Also, I saw that you said you have anxiety issues I'm pretty sure. I do too, it sucks. ): Have you gone to the doctor for it?
I hope all is well, thanks for replying to my thread by the way <3
- BrokenSmilexx